This is kinda cool. I loved Ferris Bueller's Day Off. In fact - i think i watched it so many times that i can still recite the whole thing as i watch it.
Then...
And now...
Yep - that takes me back to my teens when there were only two television channels in New Zealand, TV did not even start broadcasting until 3pm, and then some weird looking bird turned it off again at like 10pm!
What a shock to the system that was when i arrived here for a holiday!
My trusty VHS copy of Ferris Bueller's Day Off got me through those hard times.
Give me walking ten miles barefoot in the snow to get to school - like my Dad had to do - any day!
January 31, 2012
Why You Need Courage - 3
'Be strong and of good courage, and do it...' 1 Chronicles 28:20 NKJV
We had a wonderful - and very busy day yesterday. It was my little 5lb baby's 17th birthday. I cannot believe it - how old she is - and how beautiful she is. I was up early baking her double layer chocolate M and M cake that are a birthday tradition in our home. We did presents and all that jazz and then she went off to have brunch with her Dad's family.
The T and i then packed a picnic and headed out to Papakura to one of those free concerts in the park. Hello Sailor were playing and we got the added bonus of getting to hear one of T's old University friends - Luke Hurley - play as well. We spent about 4 hours lying around on a blanket eating and enjoying the sun and the music. It was absolutely wonderful.
Nicole's friends had organised a surprise party for her so i dropped her off to that. I think she had an awesome time. The bodies of teenage girls are covering every inch of my lounge floor right now. I am stuck in my room until they stir. Apparently they arrived home about 3am. T is still amazed the the laughter and chatter did not wake me. He said it reminded him of the 12 Dancing Princesses.
Today feels like the end of a holiday or something. You know that feeling you get when you have had a really amazing holiday or break, and then you feel like you have dropped back down to earth with a huge thump when you realise you have to face the real world? Yeah - that is the feeling that i have right now.
Quiz night at the pub with mum and Graham tonight. I hope the T lives up to my mother's expectations! She seems to think he is a bit of an intelligent nerd!
Life is so good right now. Go away unexplained depressing feeling!
In 1955 Rosa Parks was arrested in Alabama for refusing to give her seat on the bus to a white man. Boycotts and bloodshed followed until the US Supreme Court ruled segregation unconstitutional. Later Rosa wrote: 'Knowing what must be done does away with fear. When I sat down on the bus that day I'd no idea history was being made, I was only thinking about getting home. But I had to make up my mind. After many years of being a victim...not giving up my seat, and whatever I had to face afterwards, wasn't important...I felt the Lord would give me the strength to endure whatever I had to face. It was time for someone to stand up - or in my case, sit down.'
Courage is displayed at unexpected moments; what you do in such moments can change you, and those around you. The story's told of a spy who was sentenced to death by a general in the Persian Army. The general had a strange custom of giving condemned criminals a choice between the firing squad and 'the big door'. When the general asked, 'What will it be?' the spy chose the firing squad. Turning to his aide the general said, 'They always prefer the known to the unknown, yet, we gave them a choice.' The aide asked, 'What lies beyond the big door?' The general replied, 'Freedom.' Then he added, 'Few are brave enough to take that door.'
The dividing line between mediocrity and success is courage. That's why David told his son Solomon upon ascending the throne: 'Be strong and of good courage, and do it.'
We had a wonderful - and very busy day yesterday. It was my little 5lb baby's 17th birthday. I cannot believe it - how old she is - and how beautiful she is. I was up early baking her double layer chocolate M and M cake that are a birthday tradition in our home. We did presents and all that jazz and then she went off to have brunch with her Dad's family.
The T and i then packed a picnic and headed out to Papakura to one of those free concerts in the park. Hello Sailor were playing and we got the added bonus of getting to hear one of T's old University friends - Luke Hurley - play as well. We spent about 4 hours lying around on a blanket eating and enjoying the sun and the music. It was absolutely wonderful.
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| Luke Hurley - chilled out entertainer |
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| Me - chilled out audience |
Nicole's friends had organised a surprise party for her so i dropped her off to that. I think she had an awesome time. The bodies of teenage girls are covering every inch of my lounge floor right now. I am stuck in my room until they stir. Apparently they arrived home about 3am. T is still amazed the the laughter and chatter did not wake me. He said it reminded him of the 12 Dancing Princesses.
Today feels like the end of a holiday or something. You know that feeling you get when you have had a really amazing holiday or break, and then you feel like you have dropped back down to earth with a huge thump when you realise you have to face the real world? Yeah - that is the feeling that i have right now.
Quiz night at the pub with mum and Graham tonight. I hope the T lives up to my mother's expectations! She seems to think he is a bit of an intelligent nerd!
Life is so good right now. Go away unexplained depressing feeling!
January 30, 2012
You don't need the Council to get rid of brothels
Brothel by school a shock for flat owner
Tip number 1 - Get parents and staff from the school to stand outside the brothel in 24 hour rostered shifts. Take photos of the men and their vehicles as they arrive. The repulsive men that frequent these places are so ashamed of their behaviour, and so horrified at the prospect of their wives and partners finding out that they have absolutely no control over their genitals that they will quickly retreat back to one of the inner city sleaze dungeons - where the only people they risk damaging with their lack of self control are the women that they use - and themselves. Let the politicians fight that one out.
Tip number 2 - repeat tip number one until parents, students, and neighbourhood gets desired result.
Tip number 3 (for the landlord) - Advise the "tenants" that you are getting the apartment checked for P. I can guarantee that with a brothel operating in your property - your walls are caked in P residue. The fear of their drug use becoming known will have them moving on in no time.
Shame the clients. No clients = not brothel.
Hinder drug use. No drug use = no hookers.
This worked to put that hideous man who had set up a brothel in a house adjacent to the drop off zone at a Henderson Intermediate a couple of years ago - out of business. That brothel was gone in less than 3 months.
Who needs the council to deal with these matters?
The owner of a Ponsonby apartment next to a primary school says she had no idea her tenants would be running an unlicensed brothel.Jackie's tips for getting rid of brothels that are next to schools.
The woman received threatening and abusive phone calls after her name and home phone number were printed on a flyer circulated to residents warning of the brothel.
She has since contacted the police and a security firm.
Since late last year Firecats Escorts has been operating from the Brown St apartment in a complex that borders Richmond Rd Primary School.
The council has opted not to use its powers to shut the brothel while it processes a resource consent application.
The apartment's owner said she did not lease the property out "under its current activities".
When pressed as to whether she would terminate the tenancy, she would not comment except to say she "was going through the appropriate channels".
Brothels are considered "entertainment facilities" and can operate near the school because the area is zoned for mixed business use.
However, because Firecats is within 30m of a residential zone, it is required to apply for consent, which it did late last month.
Yesterday Brown St residents spoken to by the Herald said the brothel had changed activity on the street and called on the council to shut it down.
Scott and Bridget Blanks, who can see the brothel from their front porch, said its customers parked their cars in front of the school as early as 9.30am.
Mr Blanks, the founder-owner of the Classic Comedy Club, was able to joke about the neighbourhood's addition.
"Every suburban street should have a brothel. You don't have a problem getting a good tradesman - you can just leave a note on their windscreens.
"You can get a taxi at the drop of a hat."
He said he was not opposed to brothels but there was a place for them, and that was not in an apartment block next to a primary school and on a mostly residential street.
"I think it's only a two-bedroom apartment ... there appears to occasionally be men waiting in cars and standing on the footpath ... I thought 'God, is there going to be a queue'?"
Another neighbour opposed to Firecats said there had been a brothel operating from the same apartment building about three years ago.
He was unsure if the same apartment had been used.
Principals' Federation president Paul Drummond said there needed to be zoning regulation that would restrict how close brothels could be to schools or preschools.
"Brothels might normally be associated with a night time industry. But modern brothels in communities don't take respect of school bells."
Secondary Principals' Association president Patrick Walsh said in the past year he had spoken to principals from about four schools with brothels nearby.
Mr Walsh said in some cases children had come across used syringes and condoms near schools, necessitating clean-ups by gloved teachers.
Last year a brothel that opened across the street from Henderson Intermediate School shut down after protest from parents and teachers.
But Prostitutes Collective national co-ordinator Catherine Healy said for the most part brothels were understated and did not attract a lot of activity.
"It's fanciful for people to complain about brothels being near schools contributing to offensive behaviour, because you can't even see the behaviour for a start - it's all behind closed doors."
ENTERTAINING
* Firecats Escorts has been operating from an apartment in a complex that borders Richmond Rd Primary School.
* Brothels are considered "entertainment facilities" and can operate near the school because the area is zoned for mixed business use.
* Because Firecats is within 30m of a residential zone, it is required to apply for resource consent.
Tip number 1 - Get parents and staff from the school to stand outside the brothel in 24 hour rostered shifts. Take photos of the men and their vehicles as they arrive. The repulsive men that frequent these places are so ashamed of their behaviour, and so horrified at the prospect of their wives and partners finding out that they have absolutely no control over their genitals that they will quickly retreat back to one of the inner city sleaze dungeons - where the only people they risk damaging with their lack of self control are the women that they use - and themselves. Let the politicians fight that one out.
Tip number 2 - repeat tip number one until parents, students, and neighbourhood gets desired result.
Tip number 3 (for the landlord) - Advise the "tenants" that you are getting the apartment checked for P. I can guarantee that with a brothel operating in your property - your walls are caked in P residue. The fear of their drug use becoming known will have them moving on in no time.
Shame the clients. No clients = not brothel.
Hinder drug use. No drug use = no hookers.
This worked to put that hideous man who had set up a brothel in a house adjacent to the drop off zone at a Henderson Intermediate a couple of years ago - out of business. That brothel was gone in less than 3 months.
Who needs the council to deal with these matters?
January 29, 2012
Why You Need Courage - 2
'Be strong and of good courage...' Joshua 1:6 NKJV
This is a gratuitous - i have nothing to say, but have to say something - post.
Stink day.
I have given up on summer all together. The air actually feels like autumn already.
We spent the day wandering around Sylvia Park shopping for Nicole's birthday presents.
Now i am tired but have to stay awake for like 50 more hours because i have to pick Billy up from the airport at like 1am.
Typical Jetstar - who flies in from Wellington in the middle of the night? No wonder Billy's tickets were like 5 bucks.
Joshua discovered four reasons why you need to be strong and demonstrate courage. Yesterday we looked at the first two.
Today let's look at the next two: (3) For the sake of others. People are watching you. They want to know if you'll face the situation with courage or buckle before it in fear. Your ability to demonstrate faith in the midst of difficulties will give them courage. The battle is not just about you, it's about those God has planned to bless through you. You may not have money or fame, but you have influence. The attitudes you display and the decisions you make will influence your children and your grandchildren. You say, 'But I am afraid.' We all experience fear. But the Psalmist declared, 'Whenever I am afraid, I will trust in You' (Psalm 56:3 NKJV).
(4) For your enemies' sake. David wrote: 'You prepare a table before me in the presence of my enemies...' (Psalm 23:5 NKJV). God will not only fight for you, He will vindicate you in the eyes of your critics. It's good to have critics and competitors. Sometimes a foe can press you into victory where a friend cannot. Who would ever have heard of David, without Goliath? Who would have known about Moses, if there had been no Pharaoh oppressing God's people? And what would have been known about Esther, without Haman's evil plot against the Jews? What's your dream? Is there an enemy standing between you and its fulfilment? Dare to confront them and they will become an instrument in God's hand to press you into your destiny.
This is a gratuitous - i have nothing to say, but have to say something - post.
Stink day.
I have given up on summer all together. The air actually feels like autumn already.
We spent the day wandering around Sylvia Park shopping for Nicole's birthday presents.
Now i am tired but have to stay awake for like 50 more hours because i have to pick Billy up from the airport at like 1am.
Typical Jetstar - who flies in from Wellington in the middle of the night? No wonder Billy's tickets were like 5 bucks.
January 28, 2012
My tipline was right!
Tindall bouncer on assault charge
The bouncer accused of leaking video footage of England rugby captain Mike Tindall's infamous night in Queenstown has been charged with a violent assault that left a young man in an induced coma.
The Weekend Herald can reveal that Jonathan Dixon, 40, was arrested yesterday and charged with wounding with reckless disregard causing grievous bodily harm to Jordan Sinke at a Queenstown bar last Saturday morning.
Roid rage - P - take your pick.
Jonathan Dixon is now more than just the creepy self appointed judge of the morality of Queenstown - with a webcam. Now he is running around beating the crap out of young men in nightclubs.
Lock that rock ape up for good before he kills someone.
I hear Dotcom has a vacancy for a security guard.
Anyway - a commenter on my blog told me this was Dixon - earlier in the week.
I should have scooped it!
Bugger you T - and your defamation / don't poke sticks at freaks - advice!
O well - next time!
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| Jonathan Dixon - Creepy, Creepy, Creepy! |
People that dress up in suits to appear in court - like it is the only chance they will ever get to wear their Sunday best - crack me up.
January 27, 2012
Why You Need Courage - 1
'Be strong and of good courage...' Joshua 1:6 NKJV
I need courage - or something - right now.
A few days ago a comment was left on my blog in relation to the identity of the T. This anonymous person was telling me that he/she was looking for him. Why they did not just email me, or message me on Facebook - where they would have recognised him in my photo - is beyond me, but they didn't. I don't know how this person expected me to give them a "heads up" when they made their comment anonymously.
The T and i have wondered all week who this person could be. I joked with him several times about the possibility of another T junior floating around somewhere out there.
Yesterday - it would appear that this person got impatient waiting for me to reply, and decided to just turn up on his doorstep - according to his neighbour.
Ugh. Of course it is a woman from his drug and drink fuelled past - but not so distant past that they were not having flirtatious contact right up until the time that i met him - behind her husband's back - and behind Michaela's back. Once - ages ago - i ended up sitting around in his lounge for an hour listening to their conversation. She had felt the need to phone him from overseas and let him know that she was coming back - with or without her husband and 4 kids - i have no idea.
I don't know this woman but i don't like her. She is someone that he did drugs with, someone that he was always drunk with, someone that is unfaithful to her husband, and someone that used to admit to and laugh about the fact that she was a bad influence on him and the cause of him relapsing. The last time he heard from her she had text him wanting to meet. He responded by inviting her to an NA meeting with us. She did not reply.
The T has done nothing wrong. He told me about her visit straight after his neighbour told him - just like he had promised to do if he heard from her.
So whhhhyyyyyy am i feeling so YUCK about the whole situation right now???
Is there no end to the popping up of women from this man's past?!?!
Phew - that was better out than in!
The T and i have a kid free weekend to look forward to. His are at their mum's, Billy is in Wellington for some X box competition / geekfest, Jorgia is in Waiuku, and Nicole is making like a vegetable in her bedroom. She nearly doesn't count as a kid anyway - she will be 17!!! on Monday.
Gosh i miss my little babies.
Must. Not. Let. Pop. Up. Woman. Ruin. Our. Weekend.
Repeat until it sinks in.
The T and i have come far. 6 months ago something like this would have been a disaster of relationship ending proportions.
I. Love. Him.
Why did God say to Joshua, 'Be strong and of good courage'?
For four reasons: (1) For Joshua's own sake. God had a lot invested in Joshua; the future of an entire nation rested on his shoulders. And since God has a lot invested in you too, you must believe that it's His will for you to succeed. If you grew up in a family or church where you felt unworthy of God's favour and unentitled to His blessing, you must reprogramme your mind with the Scriptures. '...then you will make your way prosperous, and then you will have good success' (Joshua 1:8 NKJV).
(2) For the Lord's sake. God told Joshua, '...do not be afraid...for the Lord your God is with you wherever you go' (Joshua 1:9 NKJV). God's reputation was on the line. The nations in Canaan had heard how He delivered the Israelites from slavery, drowned the Egyptian army in the Red Sea, and fed His people with food from Heaven every day. Had Joshua failed to conquer the Promised Land it would have brought reproach to God's name and made His people a laughing stock. The Lord had a bigger stake in Israel's success than anyone else. His plan to bring forth the Messiah depended on their success. His desire was to turn a bunch of slaves into the greatest nation on earth - one that served the true and living God. And Joshua had a big part to play in it. Where did Joshua's strength come from? This promise: '...the Lord your God is with you wherever you go' (Joshua 1:9 NIV).
I need courage - or something - right now.
A few days ago a comment was left on my blog in relation to the identity of the T. This anonymous person was telling me that he/she was looking for him. Why they did not just email me, or message me on Facebook - where they would have recognised him in my photo - is beyond me, but they didn't. I don't know how this person expected me to give them a "heads up" when they made their comment anonymously.
The T and i have wondered all week who this person could be. I joked with him several times about the possibility of another T junior floating around somewhere out there.
Yesterday - it would appear that this person got impatient waiting for me to reply, and decided to just turn up on his doorstep - according to his neighbour.
Ugh. Of course it is a woman from his drug and drink fuelled past - but not so distant past that they were not having flirtatious contact right up until the time that i met him - behind her husband's back - and behind Michaela's back. Once - ages ago - i ended up sitting around in his lounge for an hour listening to their conversation. She had felt the need to phone him from overseas and let him know that she was coming back - with or without her husband and 4 kids - i have no idea.
I don't know this woman but i don't like her. She is someone that he did drugs with, someone that he was always drunk with, someone that is unfaithful to her husband, and someone that used to admit to and laugh about the fact that she was a bad influence on him and the cause of him relapsing. The last time he heard from her she had text him wanting to meet. He responded by inviting her to an NA meeting with us. She did not reply.
The T has done nothing wrong. He told me about her visit straight after his neighbour told him - just like he had promised to do if he heard from her.
So whhhhyyyyyy am i feeling so YUCK about the whole situation right now???
Is there no end to the popping up of women from this man's past?!?!
Phew - that was better out than in!
The T and i have a kid free weekend to look forward to. His are at their mum's, Billy is in Wellington for some X box competition / geekfest, Jorgia is in Waiuku, and Nicole is making like a vegetable in her bedroom. She nearly doesn't count as a kid anyway - she will be 17!!! on Monday.
Gosh i miss my little babies.
Must. Not. Let. Pop. Up. Woman. Ruin. Our. Weekend.
Repeat until it sinks in.
The T and i have come far. 6 months ago something like this would have been a disaster of relationship ending proportions.
I. Love. Him.
Yikes
And i thought people that create fake Facebook profiles to spy on people were bad and needed to get lives.
Holy cow that guy is scary.
He makes my own personal stalkers seem almost pleasantly creepy.
Thought for the day
If you think things are bad in your life, or your current relationship or partner is mental - just remember - it could always be worse.
You could be dating this guy! Or someone who dated him!
I shouldn't be too hard on Antonie. For every nutter there is an equal nutter that is perfect for them - Eva Braun, Myra Hindley - you get the idea.
They say there is someone out there for everyone.
You could be dating this guy! Or someone who dated him!
I shouldn't be too hard on Antonie. For every nutter there is an equal nutter that is perfect for them - Eva Braun, Myra Hindley - you get the idea.
They say there is someone out there for everyone.
January 26, 2012
My Corn
These were the yummiest corn on the cobs that i have ever tasted.
There are not many things better than being able to go out to your backyard and pick your own dinner.
I think that is the first time i have ever seen the T's kids gobble up a vegetable - and then ask for seconds.
I. Love. My. Garden.
The Teapot Has Leaked
I guess no one is prepared to put the actual recording up on their blogs for fear of being prosecuted and having the wrath of John Key come down on them - as Bradley Ambrose has experienced - or something like that.
If you want to hear it though - it is on youtube. Yep - that is where it is. Just search user name 2Johns2Cups.
I am struggling to hear anything over the noise of screaming children on the tape - but someone out there might be able to make something interesting of it.
I don't have time to strain my ears right now.
Maybe later.
***Update***
There - someone listened to it for me.
Thank goodness for that.
If you want to hear it though - it is on youtube. Yep - that is where it is. Just search user name 2Johns2Cups.
I am struggling to hear anything over the noise of screaming children on the tape - but someone out there might be able to make something interesting of it.
I don't have time to strain my ears right now.
Maybe later.
***Update***
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| Teapot Transcript |
There - someone listened to it for me.
Thank goodness for that.
We could be forgiven for thinking it is illegal to have fun
Kim Dotcom's family party at mansion
I love how that headline alludes to some big boozy bash with illicit drugs and adult entertainment provided.
It was a three year old's birthday party! How is that news?
The way the media are splashing photos of Dotcom and his life all over the news - we could be forgiven for thinking that there is something wrong, sinful, or even illegal about being happy and having a good time.
Lock him up and throw away the key!
I love how that headline alludes to some big boozy bash with illicit drugs and adult entertainment provided.
It was a three year old's birthday party! How is that news?
The way the media are splashing photos of Dotcom and his life all over the news - we could be forgiven for thinking that there is something wrong, sinful, or even illegal about being happy and having a good time.
As internet piracy accused Kim Dotcom was sent back to jail yesterday, his family partied in their $30 million mansion.A clown, bouncy castle, AND face painting?!?!
The lavish party was to celebrate Dotcom's son's third birthday, and around 70 guests were entertained by a clown, bouncy castles and face painting.
Lock him up and throw away the key!
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| Cornflake - not as big a clown as the Media |
Of Good Character?
Child porn offender wants name suppression
What. The. Heck?
How can a person that downloads, views, and shares child pornography be described as "of good character" ???
I don't care what this man has done for his community, or about his lack of previous criminal convictions (all that means is that he hasn't been caught). I want to know that i am not dealing with someone who involves himself in the rape of children when i am dealing with any business.
The whole argument surrounding name suppression is that it is to protect the victim. That argument cannot apply here because there is no name that can be put to the faces that this man got off on watching being raped.
I am absolutely disgusted and angered that our judicial system would even consider protecting a predator like this man.
FOUL.
Judge Rollo also noted a psychological report stated the man had shown "huge remorse", that he had no previous convictions, was "prominently" described as someone "of good character" and had contributed to the community both personally and through business.
What. The. Heck?
How can a person that downloads, views, and shares child pornography be described as "of good character" ???
I don't care what this man has done for his community, or about his lack of previous criminal convictions (all that means is that he hasn't been caught). I want to know that i am not dealing with someone who involves himself in the rape of children when i am dealing with any business.
The whole argument surrounding name suppression is that it is to protect the victim. That argument cannot apply here because there is no name that can be put to the faces that this man got off on watching being raped.
I am absolutely disgusted and angered that our judicial system would even consider protecting a predator like this man.
FOUL.
January 25, 2012
Cheaters most likely to be National Party voters
Christchurch tops NZ's cheating hotspots
I have lots of male friends. I have several male friends that confide in me regarding their extra marital affairs. The T always asks me and wonders why these friends of mine feel the need to confide all their deep and dark secrets to me. I asked one of these friends that very question the other day and he said something about me never judging him - although i rightly call him stupid - and that i have been a crazy woman so i understand the way the type of woman that they attract thinks.
I replied with - thanks. I think.
It doesn't matter though, how much i warn my friends off crazy women that only want men that are not available - or that have money - and are manipulative and crazy to the point of it being so obvious that they might as well have "I am an evil nutter that wants to destroy your life" tattooed on their foreheads - these friends never listen to me.
They just keep going back for more. The latest one has gone so mental that she has had police turning up at my friend's work because she proclaims to be afraid of him. This - a week after she was begging him to leave his wife and despite the fact that she treats 111 like her very own personal relationship counsellor.
EVIL. But that's what you get when you cheat! The type of woman that is going to sleep with you knowing that you are already in a committed relationship, is not going be the type of woman that you should expect sanity or kindness from.
You gotta feel sorry for them - The Police - having to deal with the mess that nutters make of their personal lives day in and day out. They really should advertise that you require the patience of a saint in their recruitment drives.
Anywayyyy - moving on.
What do every single one of these friends who have extra marital affairs have in common?
They are all loaded and vote National.
The T is broke, votes Labour, has no tattoos, and does not smoke.
Phew.
I would believe it. In fact that totally does not surprise me at all.
Kiwis who have an extra-marital affair are most likely to be smoking Christians from Christchurch with tattoos that vote for the National party, according to new figures.
I have lots of male friends. I have several male friends that confide in me regarding their extra marital affairs. The T always asks me and wonders why these friends of mine feel the need to confide all their deep and dark secrets to me. I asked one of these friends that very question the other day and he said something about me never judging him - although i rightly call him stupid - and that i have been a crazy woman so i understand the way the type of woman that they attract thinks.
I replied with - thanks. I think.
It doesn't matter though, how much i warn my friends off crazy women that only want men that are not available - or that have money - and are manipulative and crazy to the point of it being so obvious that they might as well have "I am an evil nutter that wants to destroy your life" tattooed on their foreheads - these friends never listen to me.
They just keep going back for more. The latest one has gone so mental that she has had police turning up at my friend's work because she proclaims to be afraid of him. This - a week after she was begging him to leave his wife and despite the fact that she treats 111 like her very own personal relationship counsellor.
EVIL. But that's what you get when you cheat! The type of woman that is going to sleep with you knowing that you are already in a committed relationship, is not going be the type of woman that you should expect sanity or kindness from.
You gotta feel sorry for them - The Police - having to deal with the mess that nutters make of their personal lives day in and day out. They really should advertise that you require the patience of a saint in their recruitment drives.
Anywayyyy - moving on.
What do every single one of these friends who have extra marital affairs have in common?
They are all loaded and vote National.
The T is broke, votes Labour, has no tattoos, and does not smoke.
Phew.
The Stripper Myth
I was reminded of Chris Rock's stripper myth this morning, after a comment was made on a blog post that i did yesterday regarding the media attempting to promote prostitution as a positive lifestyle choice.
Despite the seriousness of this issue - this totally cracks me up - and is so true.
Despite the seriousness of this issue - this totally cracks me up - and is so true.
Guess who?
Assault victim remains in coma
Did Mr Pink lose his webcam - along with his temper?
A man assaulted at a Queenstown nightclub last weekend remains in an induced coma and could be left with life-long health issues, police say.
At about 3am on Saturday, Queenstown man Jordan Kees Sinke, 26, and another patron at Subculture night club had a scuffle which left Mr Sinke unconscious on the floor.
About 30 people were in the bar at the time, and police have talked to a number of witnesses, Detective Lisa Watt said.
"We have received some good information but we are still keen to talk with people who were in the bar around that time," Ms Watt said.
"This is a serious assault which could potentially have a life-changing impact for Jordan. We are very keen to hear from anyone who has any information that might help us in the inquiry."
Anyone with information should contact Queenstown police.
Did Mr Pink lose his webcam - along with his temper?
January 24, 2012
Tomato Success
I can't believe it - and there are heaps of them! I wonder how long it will take for them to turn red?
That big, huge, fat, hairy bee did not seem to mind being photographed.
Ed Sheeran - I LOVE him
One of my daughters bought his CD with some of her Christmas money.
He. Is. Awesome.
I could listen to that song all day.
If you don't feel a sense of empathy for drug addicts and prostitutes after listening to that song and watching the video then you are a cold, hard, person.
I still can't believe it when i read stories in our media that attempt to glorify that lifestyle.
I could not believe it when i read that article and the last paragraph went like this;
"Because whether she works in the worst parlour in town or for us, the thought of your daughter working as a sex worker is not what you want for her, and that will take a while to change."
Ugh. Is Mary Brennon for real?
I sincerely hope that i never live in a world that has changed so much - for the worse - that parents aspire for their daughters to become sex workers.
What a repulsive thought.
I can't believe those words even came out of that woman's mouth.
January 23, 2012
The Freaker of the Spouse
Rick Perry endorses Newt Gingrich - giving Gingrich a 3 minute respite from his second ex wife.
This is hilarious.
This is hilarious.
Conformed or Transformed - 3
'Do not be conformed...but be transformed...' Romans 12:2 NKJV
Too busy to blog today.
Got a boat load done, and still managed to fit in a 6k run with Nixon before it got dark. The sunset looking West from Howick was spectacular tonight. I made a mental note to myself to run at that time of the night more often.
Bed time for me. The blogging fingers will be back on form tomorrow.
What does it mean to give yourself fully to God? (1) It's an act of worship. 'Offer your bodies...this is your spiritual act of worship' (v1 NIV). Worship isn't just attending Sunday service, singing praises and saying prayers. '...this people...honour Me with their lip service, but they remove their hearts far from Me...' (Isaiah 29:13 NAS). It calls for surrendering your heart to God twenty-four hours of every day; whether you're alone or in a crowd, at work, enjoying recreation, spending family time, at school, on a date or just walking the dog. If your heart isn't moving you, your behaviour will only be an act of reluctant compliance rather than one of joyful commitment. Surrendering to God isn't a part-time thing done for your own benefit; it's a full-time act of worship done for God's benefit.
(2) It's a response to God's generosity. '...in view of God's mercy...offer your bodies...' (Romans 12:1 NIV). God doesn't say, 'If you don't surrender I will punish you.' There's no arm twisting. You don't submit through clenched teeth because of fear; no, it's a response to a debt. Everything God asks is initiated by His giving. Your repentance is a response to His love. Your tithe is a response to His blessing. Your obedience is a response to His promises. God's grace is never 'a deal', it's the 'free gift' of His love to the undeserving (Romans 5:18).
Therefore 'in view of' - as a rational response to - His mercy, 'offer your bodies as living sacrifices.' It's your 'reasonable service' and it will be 'acceptable to God.'
Too busy to blog today.
Got a boat load done, and still managed to fit in a 6k run with Nixon before it got dark. The sunset looking West from Howick was spectacular tonight. I made a mental note to myself to run at that time of the night more often.
Bed time for me. The blogging fingers will be back on form tomorrow.
January 22, 2012
Sky - the latest legal high
Toxin in latest herbal high can cause liver damage
Awesome.
Ok, so i have a question for Michael Thorburn that the Herald did not think to ask him.
Where is he marketing his poisonous product? If it is considered Potpourri and Aromatherapy then i think i will head down to the nearest 'Living and Giving' and see if they have their free samples.
I would bet though, that is not the kind of shop that Mr Thorburn has been passing his product out to. I would bet that i would be more likely to find it in the local dairies and liquor stores.
Honestly - where does it end?
It doesn't - as long as there are people out there that are attempting to profit off of other people's misery....it just goes on, and on and on.
An ingredient in a new herbal product that experts suspect may be smoked in New Zealand has been shown to cause tumours in rats and liver failure, says a toxicologist.
The product, called "Sky" and which looks like cannabis, hit shops in Auckland this week. Its active ingredient is tussilago farfara, or coltsfoot.
Synthetic cannabis products such as Kronic are prohibited but new herbal high products are reaching the market.
National Poisons Centre spokesperson Dr Leo Schep said coltsfoot was toxic if used over a prolonged period and it had been banned overseas.
"I strongly advise people do not smoke this product - it contains alkaloids which can lead to liver damage."
A Christchurch-based distributor, In2herbs, circulated Sky to retailers in Auckland this week as a giveaway to customers.
Sky packaging notes the product is intended for potpourri or aromatherapy, and warned against human consumption.
In2herbs owner Michael Thorman said he did not advocate people smoked the product, but said he knew people did. "It's been through New Zealand Customs declarations, they wouldn't let it into the country if it was illegal," he said.
Thorman said there was nothing dangerous about the product he sold, but admitted it had not been tested in New Zealand.
"I personally don't use any of it. I have never smoked," he said.
"We cannot do anything about what people do with it.
"As a company, we have to be careful to protect ourselves."
Awesome.
Ok, so i have a question for Michael Thorburn that the Herald did not think to ask him.
Where is he marketing his poisonous product? If it is considered Potpourri and Aromatherapy then i think i will head down to the nearest 'Living and Giving' and see if they have their free samples.
I would bet though, that is not the kind of shop that Mr Thorburn has been passing his product out to. I would bet that i would be more likely to find it in the local dairies and liquor stores.
Honestly - where does it end?
It doesn't - as long as there are people out there that are attempting to profit off of other people's misery....it just goes on, and on and on.
Quote of the Day - 8
Ok ok so it is really a "comment of the day" rather than a quote - but i saw this on another blog and it just screamed out to be shared.
It would appear that in the case of Kim Dotcom - the Police, the Media, and some blogs - are not letting the truth get in the way of a good story.
So i think i will do my best to get in their way.
I have nothing against the Police. I love the Police. But there is a whole lot in that comment that i have to agree with in this case.
Food for thought anyway - just in case you are one of the many people out there that are buying what the media are reporting, and have a vision in your head of some mafia dude being busted with a houseful of cash and firearms while snorting cocaine off a hooker's butt from a spa pool full of strippers - like the media would like us to believe.
I found this old news item from last year regarding Kim Dotcom's criminal history - or lack there of.
It would seem that our government was happy to let Kim Dotcom buy ten million dollars worth of government bonds. He had a good enough character to donate a large sum of money to the Christchurch Earthquake Appeal, and the Auckland City Council was also happy to take one million dollars worth of fireworks off of Mr. Dotcom for the 2010 - 2011 New Years Celebrations in Auckland - but he just didn't have quite a good enough character for Simon Power to allow him to purchase property here.
What. The. Heck?!?
Does the New Zealand Government taking all that money off Dotcom when they thought he was a criminal make them guilty of receiving proceeds of crime, or stolen property? I wonder if the FBI will sue the New Zealand government to get some of that money back.
It would appear that in the case of Kim Dotcom - the Police, the Media, and some blogs - are not letting the truth get in the way of a good story.
So i think i will do my best to get in their way.
Food for thought anyway - just in case you are one of the many people out there that are buying what the media are reporting, and have a vision in your head of some mafia dude being busted with a houseful of cash and firearms while snorting cocaine off a hooker's butt from a spa pool full of strippers - like the media would like us to believe.
I found this old news item from last year regarding Kim Dotcom's criminal history - or lack there of.
It would seem that our government was happy to let Kim Dotcom buy ten million dollars worth of government bonds. He had a good enough character to donate a large sum of money to the Christchurch Earthquake Appeal, and the Auckland City Council was also happy to take one million dollars worth of fireworks off of Mr. Dotcom for the 2010 - 2011 New Years Celebrations in Auckland - but he just didn't have quite a good enough character for Simon Power to allow him to purchase property here.
What. The. Heck?!?
Does the New Zealand Government taking all that money off Dotcom when they thought he was a criminal make them guilty of receiving proceeds of crime, or stolen property? I wonder if the FBI will sue the New Zealand government to get some of that money back.
What is so bad about this?
Are we just making big asses of our Kiwi selves?
How is selling a now redundant engagement ring "airing dirty laundry"?
I don't get it.
I only took off my wedding and engagement rings about 6 months ago. My hand still kinda feels weird without them but the T insisted that they go - which was totally fair enough - so they went.
I don't know why they were so hard to take off, for so long - but they were.
Anyway - i now have a one carat princess cut diamond ring, set in white gold that retailed for 5 grand that really only dredges up memories of pain if i look at it - sitting on my dresser collecting dust.
If anyone wants it - it's yours - for a grand.
Who cares about dirty laundry?
We all have it.
Another woman, Petra Skoric, is selling her $20,000 engagement ring. "It does have a bit of an airing-dirty-laundry-in-public taste to it but Trade Me is a relatively anonymous place to sell something like that," she says. "And to be honest, I rely on the internet so much in both my professional and personal life that I can't even think of where else I'd sell it."
Skoric accepts that other people will cast judgment on what had been, for her, a very personal possession.
"I don't mind strangers evaluating it - after all, it is just a material commodity when I take myself out of the picture, and it has a retail value. I'm probably more precious about selling off some of my shoes because the ring to me now is just a symbol of something that no longer exists and wasted potential money sitting around."
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Before the internet became popular, says psychologist Sara Chatwin, people would have put ads for unwanted engagement rings and possessions left over from a marital split in the local newspaper, or taken them to second-hand shops.
The anonymity of selling online helps people feel more free. It also gives buyers the courage to look at things they otherwise wouldn't because they could not be seen doing it. But she said people should not be too surprised at the backlash.
How is selling a now redundant engagement ring "airing dirty laundry"?
I don't get it.
I only took off my wedding and engagement rings about 6 months ago. My hand still kinda feels weird without them but the T insisted that they go - which was totally fair enough - so they went.
I don't know why they were so hard to take off, for so long - but they were.
Anyway - i now have a one carat princess cut diamond ring, set in white gold that retailed for 5 grand that really only dredges up memories of pain if i look at it - sitting on my dresser collecting dust.
If anyone wants it - it's yours - for a grand.
Who cares about dirty laundry?
We all have it.
January 21, 2012
Apparently this is the Chrisco mansion
...where Kim Dotcom was arrested.
I did not even know there WAS a Chrisco mansion.
That is the worst advertisment for those ridiculous and tacky Chrisco Hampers imaginable. Even worse than that annoying old lady in the Mrs Claus outfit.
Chrisco did not get that mansion by giving their poor customers bargains and paying their bills.
That much is for certain.
I did not even know there WAS a Chrisco mansion.
That is the worst advertisment for those ridiculous and tacky Chrisco Hampers imaginable. Even worse than that annoying old lady in the Mrs Claus outfit.
Chrisco did not get that mansion by giving their poor customers bargains and paying their bills.
That much is for certain.
Conformed or Transformed - 2
'Do not be conformed...but be transformed...' Romans 12:2 NKJV
This is the blog post that i have known i was going to have to write - ever since T's daughter's birthday - but had hoped it would never happen.
We have woken up this morning to some very sad news.
After having their tank cleaned by the T last night, and him NOT listening to me while he was elbow deep in fish poop regarding the use of soap to clean the tank - Goldie and Golden have gone to the big fish pond in the sky.
They survived 6 weeks and had a much more peaceful demise than Billy's fish.
A private funeral has already been held - sad music and all. They are now in their final resting place in the backyard.
RIP Goldie and Golden - you had a happier life in 6 weeks than most fish have in 6 months - and at least you did not get eaten by Oliver the cat - or pureed down the waste master.
In lieu of flowers the family requests that everyone join me in rubbing the fact that i was right - and he was wrong - in the T's face for the next 24 hours!
Small animals with short life expectancies, that do nothing but eat and poop are a waste of money and a pain in the butt!
It is not often that i get to hear the words "You were right." come out of the T's mouth. I am going to revel in this feeling for as long as possible.
Transformation: (1) Requires personal sacrifice. It's not easy, natural or automatic. It calls for becoming a 'living sacrifice'. The problem with 'living' sacrifices is their tendency to keep escaping the altar, having to be led back repeatedly to be sacrificed again and again. Salvation is an instant, once-for-all experience, but there can be no instant, once-for-all 'living sacrifice'. It's a day-by-day, moment-by-moment recommitment which means bringing our stubborn nature back to the altar, surrendering it to God as often as necessary. Don't wait for your old nature to improve or to agree to die before concluding your sacrifice is truly genuine. And don't let it discourage you in your battle for victory; your old nature and your regenerated spirit are mutual enemies, '...constantly fighting each other, so you are not free to carry out your good intentions' (Galatians 5:17 NLT). Your job isn't to obliterate the flesh but to crucify it each time it wants to take over, refusing to let it curtail or cripple your commitment to spiritual growth.
(2) Is a two-sided issue. '...offer your bodies as living sacrifices, holy and pleasing to God' (Romans 12:1 NIV). That involves a resolute decision of mind and will, because our bodies don't surrender themselves. Until you deliberately choose to 'offer your [body]...to God,' your flesh will act unrestrained. '...Just as you...offer the parts of your body in slavery...to ever increasing wickedness, so now offer them in slavery to righteousness leading to holiness' (Romans 6:19 NIV). When you surrender to your lower impulses, you reap sin. When you surrender to God, you reap His blessing.
This is the blog post that i have known i was going to have to write - ever since T's daughter's birthday - but had hoped it would never happen.
We have woken up this morning to some very sad news.
After having their tank cleaned by the T last night, and him NOT listening to me while he was elbow deep in fish poop regarding the use of soap to clean the tank - Goldie and Golden have gone to the big fish pond in the sky.
They survived 6 weeks and had a much more peaceful demise than Billy's fish.
A private funeral has already been held - sad music and all. They are now in their final resting place in the backyard.
RIP Goldie and Golden - you had a happier life in 6 weeks than most fish have in 6 months - and at least you did not get eaten by Oliver the cat - or pureed down the waste master.
In lieu of flowers the family requests that everyone join me in rubbing the fact that i was right - and he was wrong - in the T's face for the next 24 hours!
Small animals with short life expectancies, that do nothing but eat and poop are a waste of money and a pain in the butt!
It is not often that i get to hear the words "You were right." come out of the T's mouth. I am going to revel in this feeling for as long as possible.
January 20, 2012
Kim Dotcom Remanded in Custody
Oh dear.
Murderers, rapists, drug dealers are let out on bail and a computer whizz who shared some - OK OK a lot - of files, and cost a gazillion dollar business a few hundred million, gets remanded in custody.
Now the whole Internet is going to blow up.
Sorely disappointed.
Kim Dotcom is a living and breathing (just - by the looks of it) example of what can happen to you if you don't go outside to play once in awhile - but one would think that the FBI would havebigger badder fish to fry?
It is a very contentious so called law that he is accused of breaking. What right does anyone have to turn up at his house, take everything he owns, lock him up without giving him bail, then send him off to the States?
Kinda scary stuff really.
To top it off, the judge that has refused Dotcom bail is the same judge that released Ashkay Chand on bail after he kidnapped Christie Marceau - only for him to go and murder her while he was on that bail.
Kidnapping and murder = bail in New Zealand.
Piss off corporate American rip off artists = no bail in New Zealand
Hmmmm.
Murderers, rapists, drug dealers are let out on bail and a computer whizz who shared some - OK OK a lot - of files, and cost a gazillion dollar business a few hundred million, gets remanded in custody.
Now the whole Internet is going to blow up.
ANONYMOUS FIGHTS BACKWhen i heard on the news this morning, that houses all over Auckland had been raided - i got excited that some nasty, evil, gangland criminals had been busted.
Online activists Anonymous struck back almost instantly, shutting down both the US Justice Department and Universal Music's websites in a response called 'Operation Megaupload'.
Soon after, websites for the Motion Picture Association of America, British record label representatives BMI and the US Copyright office were also targeted, as well as the sites belonging to the FBI and the White House. Tech website Gizmodo called it "easily the widest in scope and ferocity we've seen in some time".
“It was in retaliation for Megaupload, as was the concurrent attack on Justice.gov,” said Anonymous operative Barret Brown.
Mr Brown also said: “more is coming” and other members of Anonymous are pursuing a joint effort with others to “damage campaign raising abilities of remaining Democrats who support SOPA”.
Sorely disappointed.
Kim Dotcom is a living and breathing (just - by the looks of it) example of what can happen to you if you don't go outside to play once in awhile - but one would think that the FBI would have
It is a very contentious so called law that he is accused of breaking. What right does anyone have to turn up at his house, take everything he owns, lock him up without giving him bail, then send him off to the States?
Kinda scary stuff really.
To top it off, the judge that has refused Dotcom bail is the same judge that released Ashkay Chand on bail after he kidnapped Christie Marceau - only for him to go and murder her while he was on that bail.
Kidnapping and murder = bail in New Zealand.
Piss off corporate American rip off artists = no bail in New Zealand
Hmmmm.
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| Kim Dotcom |
Big Day Out - Then and Now
I kinda wanted to go to the The Big Day Out this year. I have never been to one and since this one was going to be the last - i was a bit bummed out that i had missed out on this event all together - for like 19 years.
Every year i had said to myself that i would go.
Every year - for various reasons - i never bothered.
I am glad i didn't bother this year. This photo has totally cured my BDO blues.
I have driven past Mt Smart Stadium twice today - on the way to and from the T's place. The only reminders of the fact that the BDO was even happening today were the signs that had been made by local rip off artists trying to sell parking spaces for TWENTY BUCKS a pop.
Sad for them.
Every year i had said to myself that i would go.
Every year - for various reasons - i never bothered.
I am glad i didn't bother this year. This photo has totally cured my BDO blues.
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| 2007 crowd at 1pm vs 2012 crowd at 1pm |
I have driven past Mt Smart Stadium twice today - on the way to and from the T's place. The only reminders of the fact that the BDO was even happening today were the signs that had been made by local rip off artists trying to sell parking spaces for TWENTY BUCKS a pop.
Sad for them.
Conformed or Transformed - 1
'Do not be conformed...but be transformed...' Romans 12:2 NKJV
I have had an awesome, AWESOME 24 hours.
Yesterday i received my the acceptance letter to the University course that i had applied for. I am so, so, sooooo excited. As of February 16th - i am a full time student. It is only a one year course and i have chosen that on purpose. I figure if i can complete that then i have a qualification that will enable me to get employment in a job that i actually have an interest in, and want to do - then i can continue to study and further my education part time - while working - if i decide to. It was also important to me, after not having done any study in a long time, to not bite off more than i can chew and end up failing.
I am so excited to have finally decided what i want to do with the next 25 years of my life, and be working towards that. It has taken 2 years of recovery, and all the crap that came with that to get to where i am today - and i am so happy to have finally made this decision and be doing it.
I am so lucky to have the T in my life, who has helped me and encouraged me with the issue that i have had regarding my indecision with what i wanted to do. I love him to bits and am so lucky that he loves me back.
There has also been a very special lady, that i think about all the time because she has given me so much good advice and support via email since my face was all over the news that has helped me come to this decision. Many people have taken the time to email me words of encouragement over the past couple of years but a lady with the initials J.A. has been amazing - so THANK YOU J.A. - for sending me all that advice and support. I always listen to you and value your emails - even if it doesn't seem like i listen!
I also had a really positive meeting with the Police yesterday regarding information that i had given them regarding a drug dealing serial rapist whose trial i had shown an interest in late last year. The trial ended up being aborted, and is now scheduled for later this year. I might not have done the right thing regarding him back when i was involved in such a hideous life - but i am doing the right thing now and ensuring that everything i know about that awful human being will help the victim during his trial.
I am feeling so positive about EVERYTHING right now that i think i might just burst - and i haven't even looked at the weather yet!
Busy day - must run.
Chuck Swindoll said, 'We like to imagine ourselves a race of rugged individuals - the Patrick Henrys, Davy Crocketts and Lone Rangers. The truth is, we hate to appear different lest we be ostracised, branded fanatics and rejected. So, we conform. You'll see it in the child eager to please; the adolescent aligning with peer pressure; the adult breaking their back to keep up with the Joneses.'
Just being different for its own sake is likely to be worthless, even counterproductive. What God wants from us is our willingness to be radically transformed. 'Therefore, I urge you...to offer your bodies as living sacrifices, holy and pleasing to God - this is your spiritual act of worship. Do not conform any longer to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind' (Romans 12:1-2 NIV).
Here are two important observations to help you reach that goal: First: Transformation belongs to believers. The unbeliever can't break the world's control over them without Christ, but believers are promised: '...the Spirit who lives in you is greater than the spirit who lives in the world' (1 John 4:4 NLT). God's indwelling Spirit enables you to resist the world's pressure to conform you to its ways. Secondly: God's appeal is urgent. 'I urge you, brothers.' Words like beg, plead, beseech are used in some translations because the appeal isn't secondary or optional. It's vital, a divine imperative! God is seeking for surrendered vessels that are ready to be transformed for His use. Are you willing to say, 'Yes, Lord, use me'?
I have had an awesome, AWESOME 24 hours.
Yesterday i received my the acceptance letter to the University course that i had applied for. I am so, so, sooooo excited. As of February 16th - i am a full time student. It is only a one year course and i have chosen that on purpose. I figure if i can complete that then i have a qualification that will enable me to get employment in a job that i actually have an interest in, and want to do - then i can continue to study and further my education part time - while working - if i decide to. It was also important to me, after not having done any study in a long time, to not bite off more than i can chew and end up failing.
I am so excited to have finally decided what i want to do with the next 25 years of my life, and be working towards that. It has taken 2 years of recovery, and all the crap that came with that to get to where i am today - and i am so happy to have finally made this decision and be doing it.
I am so lucky to have the T in my life, who has helped me and encouraged me with the issue that i have had regarding my indecision with what i wanted to do. I love him to bits and am so lucky that he loves me back.
There has also been a very special lady, that i think about all the time because she has given me so much good advice and support via email since my face was all over the news that has helped me come to this decision. Many people have taken the time to email me words of encouragement over the past couple of years but a lady with the initials J.A. has been amazing - so THANK YOU J.A. - for sending me all that advice and support. I always listen to you and value your emails - even if it doesn't seem like i listen!
I also had a really positive meeting with the Police yesterday regarding information that i had given them regarding a drug dealing serial rapist whose trial i had shown an interest in late last year. The trial ended up being aborted, and is now scheduled for later this year. I might not have done the right thing regarding him back when i was involved in such a hideous life - but i am doing the right thing now and ensuring that everything i know about that awful human being will help the victim during his trial.
I am feeling so positive about EVERYTHING right now that i think i might just burst - and i haven't even looked at the weather yet!
Busy day - must run.
January 19, 2012
I know where i am not going to be on Feb 29th
At Calendar Girls watching a bunch of saggy or no boobed women fight it out for a free boob job!
500 enter strip club breast job competition
This competition has a fatal flaw.
No one wants to watch no boobs - or banana boobs - or deflated orbs oscillating around a pole on a Wednesday night when you could be at home watching X Factor.
If you win the competition then you most likely don't need the prize anyway - so what is the point?
500 enter strip club breast job competition
Women competing to win a breast augmentation from an Auckland strip club could end up with a booby prize if they suffer surgery complications, a body image group says.
Next month the Calendar Girls "Win Silicones" competition begins, where up to 10 women could be awarded the cosmetic procedure free of charge.
Director Jacqui Le Prou says more than 500 women have registered for the heats which will involve an amateur strip and "best butt" competition.
Judges and Calendar Girls patrons will decide the winner.
EDEN, a non-profit organisation that promotes body acceptance and diversity, says up to 90 per cent of people who get breast augmentation suffer some form of complication.
Agency manager Deb Schwarz questions whether Calendar Girls will pay for follow-up visits to a doctor if a patient suffers pain, sensitivity or leaks.
She says around 85 per cent of women who don't suffer complications feel better about their appearance after surgery.
For those who do experience problems the opposite is true, Schwarz says.
She is also concerned entrants, many of whom will already be suffering from body dissatisfaction, will have to parade their bodies in front of an audience to win.
She says it is important for potential patients to "deal with the fact that often when we change the outside we don't necessarily deal with the issues on the inside".
EDEN recommends women interested in breast augmentation get counselling and support to work out what options are best for them.
"We'd be concerned this is being handed out as a competition prize rather than as a considered decision whereby counselling and support is available."
Schwarz is also disappointed the event is being promoted on seven radio stations and the Calendar Girls website.
"I think the fact advertisements are on during the middle of the day when young people are listening sends a strong and dangerous message to young people about what's okay in terms of the objectification of women."
She says the competition sent the message women should change how they look even if it involves surgery.
Le Prou says terms and conditions are yet to be finalised and disputes the fact most women suffer complications from breast augmentation.
"Everyone I know who's had a boob job hasn't had any problems if they've gone to a proper New Zealand surgeon."
She says organisers are seeking expressions of interest at this stage and will interview potential competitors in a fortnight.
"The ones who have commented why they want to do it have said they've just wanted them for a really, really long time and this is their opportunity because they've never been able to afford it."
Le Prou had earlier said she'd like to see breast cancer survivors enter the competition but says none have applied yet that she knows of.
According to Medical Council guidelines, it is not appropriate for doctors and surgeons to offer medical treatments as prizes for commercial or financial gain.
However, Le Prou says winners get to chose their own surgeon and Calendar Girls simply pays the bill.
"For their surgeon, it's just another person wanting to get their boobs done, they have to go through the same medical checks, have to get questioned.
"It's no different except someone else is paying for it."
Heats will take place every Wednesday from the end of February.
This competition has a fatal flaw.
No one wants to watch no boobs - or banana boobs - or deflated orbs oscillating around a pole on a Wednesday night when you could be at home watching X Factor.
If you win the competition then you most likely don't need the prize anyway - so what is the point?
January 18, 2012
Grace
'...we have all received...one grace after another...' John 1:16 AMP
Probably needed to read this one today. I have been judgementalling all over the place lately! Sometimes - i just can't help it - and it makes for some good entertainment. What fun is life when you can't judge pimps, Iain Stables, and mallet wielding p freaks without getting told off?
I'm too tired to write anything tonight, and the T is just about snoring next to me. We had an awesome swim in the ocean today, and then i ran 6 k with Nixon.
I'm wiped.
Back tomorrow.
Hopefully i can find something new to judgemental all over.
God's grace comes to us free and clear, with no strings attached. In fact, He's more tolerant and less judgmental than any of us are. We weren't worthy and didn't deserve it but because we belong to Christ, 'Out of His...(abundance) we have all received...one grace after another...spiritual blessing upon spiritual blessing...favour upon favour and gift [heaped] upon gift.' Richard J. Neuhaus said, 'The moralising and legalising of the Gospel of God's grace is a dull heresy peddled to disappointed people who are angry because they have not received what they had no good reason to expect.'
When you truly grasp the concept of grace: (1) You will gain a fresh appreciation for God's gifts to you - things like salvation and forgiveness, the gift of life, health, laughter, music, beauty and friendship. (2) You will be less critical and less concerned with what other people do. Ever heard the saying, 'I'm okay with me. I don't need to make you wrong.'? When you operate in the freedom that comes with grace, you're ok letting other people chart their own course and make decisions you may not make. (3) You will become more tolerant and less judgmental. Instead of focusing on appearance based on religious performance, you will look for authenticity and a genuine love for God. (4) You will grow spiritually. David said, 'He brought me out into a spacious place...' (Psalm 18:19 NIV). Grace expands your horizons so you can never go back to where you once were.
Probably needed to read this one today. I have been judgementalling all over the place lately! Sometimes - i just can't help it - and it makes for some good entertainment. What fun is life when you can't judge pimps, Iain Stables, and mallet wielding p freaks without getting told off?
I'm too tired to write anything tonight, and the T is just about snoring next to me. We had an awesome swim in the ocean today, and then i ran 6 k with Nixon.
I'm wiped.
Back tomorrow.
Hopefully i can find something new to judgemental all over.
January 17, 2012
I Hate the Chow Brothers
Nothing more than pug ugly, immigrant, slimy, pimps.
New Zealand has enough revolting pimps of it's own.
Someone send these two back to where they came from.
High rise brothel comes step closer
The country's first high-rise brothel is a step nearer reality after sex industry barons the Chow brothers applied to build a 15-level structure.
John and Michael Chow want to build on the site of Auckland's historic - and now demolished - Aurora pub, which they ran as the Palace Hotel.
The Chow Group is well advanced with plans to build on 75 Victoria St opposite the Sky Tower, submitting designs by Clark Brown Architects to the Auckland Council.
The building will house a Penthouse Club, restaurants, a hotel, nightclub, several bars and offices, according to the plans.
A huge, Tokyo-style media screen is to go up on the exterior - but the application says the business will not be using the screen to depict "inappropriate or unlawful information".
The Chows, who own a string of Wellington brothels and strip clubs, are joint applicants.
Couldn't be bothered reading any more of this article so didn't put it on here...but just what Auckland needs - more sleazy tackiness.
We will have prettty much, the 7 deadly sins all in one square kilometre in Auckland.
Money laundering and drug dealing central, as well as every addiction imaginable at the Sky City Casino and then all you have to do is cross the road to indulge in one of the Chow girls.
Auckland is really putting itself down.
Expect Good Things From God
'The eyes of all look expectantly to You...' Psalm 145:15 NKJV
Where is the sunshine? It is January 17th and i am still waiting for a sunny day. The T and ignored the clouds yesterday and headed down to the beach for a swim at high tide. I ended up with an ear ache from the cold wind.
Today is no better - in fact i think it is worse.
Luckily we have other things to do today. It has been well over two years since the T last did that hideous drug, and this past week he has passed his one year milestone since he last had a drink. I am so proud of him. Not that it has seemed like a difficult task for him. He is a bit like me in that respect. It seems that he just made the decision that enough was enough and that was it - no looking back. Still - it is something to celebrate so today i am going to drop my girls off at the movies then the T and i are going to head into Ponsonby to an NA meeting so that he can get his cool little "One year clean and serene" key ring.
VERY exciting stuff.
It is hard to believe that it is nearly three years for me - since i left that hideous drug and that life behind. Time has flown. I used the first two years to just recover - and now this year is going to be so exciting and full of planning and working towards an amazing future with my children - and the T and his tribe.
Jorgie just came into my room to ask me if her outfit to wear to the movies looks OK. I am so cool. My mother was the LAST person that i would ask if something looked OK. ;)
I am receiving good things from God.
When God introduced Himself to Abraham He went by the name El Shaddai, which means God Almighty, the all-sufficient'. And today God is saying to you, 'I will be all you need!' Now you know that God is able, but don't you sometimes wonder if He's willing? Simply having a revelation of God's ability is not enough; you must also believe that He will, in order to put a solid foundation under your faith.
One day a leper came to Jesus saying, 'If you will, you can heal my disease.' Jesus revealed His heart by saying, 'I will' (Mark 1:40-42 NKJV). Don't allow Satan to convince you that God may or may not take care of you. The Bible says, '...God shall supply all your need...' (Philippians 4:19 NKJV). Notice, the Bible doesn't say, 'God is power,' it says, 'God is love.' It focuses on His willingness to use His power, rather than the power itself. Because God has a heart of love, He will use His power to meet your needs.
God actually gets great pleasure out of meeting your needs. 'The Lord is gracious and full of compassion, slow to anger and great in mercy. The Lord is good to all, and His tender mercies are over all His works...The eyes of all look expectantly to You, and You give them their food in due season. You open Your hand and satisfy the desire of every living thing' (Psalm 145:8-9; 15-16 NKJV). God may not answer your prayer in the way you think He should or when you think He should, but if you trust Him He will answer in the way that's best for you.
Where is the sunshine? It is January 17th and i am still waiting for a sunny day. The T and ignored the clouds yesterday and headed down to the beach for a swim at high tide. I ended up with an ear ache from the cold wind.
Today is no better - in fact i think it is worse.
Luckily we have other things to do today. It has been well over two years since the T last did that hideous drug, and this past week he has passed his one year milestone since he last had a drink. I am so proud of him. Not that it has seemed like a difficult task for him. He is a bit like me in that respect. It seems that he just made the decision that enough was enough and that was it - no looking back. Still - it is something to celebrate so today i am going to drop my girls off at the movies then the T and i are going to head into Ponsonby to an NA meeting so that he can get his cool little "One year clean and serene" key ring.
VERY exciting stuff.
It is hard to believe that it is nearly three years for me - since i left that hideous drug and that life behind. Time has flown. I used the first two years to just recover - and now this year is going to be so exciting and full of planning and working towards an amazing future with my children - and the T and his tribe.
Jorgie just came into my room to ask me if her outfit to wear to the movies looks OK. I am so cool. My mother was the LAST person that i would ask if something looked OK. ;)
I am receiving good things from God.
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| VERY good things :) |
January 16, 2012
I was right - no need to probe further
I have received emails criticising me for jumping to conclusions regarding the death of Lance Bain. I have also been criticised on message boards for assuming that it was methamphetamine addiction that was the cause of his demise, and not just simply depression due to the recession.
Like i said previously - it is not rocket science to recognise the destruction that methamphetamine causes in every single life that it touches - especially if you have experienced it first hand - and survived it.
This article appeared on the NZ Herald website yesterday - but for some reason is no longer there. The cached copy is though - so i thought i would share it.
It is methamphetamine that is evil - not the people that succumb to it.
Like i said previously - it is not rocket science to recognise the destruction that methamphetamine causes in every single life that it touches - especially if you have experienced it first hand - and survived it.
This article appeared on the NZ Herald website yesterday - but for some reason is no longer there. The cached copy is though - so i thought i would share it.
It is methamphetamine that is evil - not the people that succumb to it.
Tomato Update
This is my first ever tomato plant that has actually produced anything.
VERY exciting.
This photo was actually taken about a week ago, and despite the lack of sun - the wind - and the rain - SOMEHOW i have managed to grow LOTS of tomatoes this year.
I am no longer the owner of the world's saddest tomato plant.
VERY exciting stuff.
The Mallet Wielding Natalie Van Breugel
...charged with manslaughter over the death of Lance Bain.
Why not murder? She is charged with threatening to kill. She then attacked him with a mallet - which caused his death.
How is that manslaughter?
'When Bad Crackie Relationships Go Worse' to be cont...
***Update***
Guess what? Surprise, surprise - she is on NZdating!
Odd - she leaves the part where she will kill you with a hammer if she does not like what she finds in your phone - out of her profile.
Funny that.
Perhaps even just a mention of having abandonment issues, and not dealing well with rejection might be nice - and fair warning - to any poor man out there that is trolling that hideous website right now.
Do NZdating not have some kind of responsibility to ensure that their members are not facing charges of unlawful killing? You know like maybe - see a killer in the news - have a browse of your website to ensure your member's safety - kind of thing?
NZdating. DO. NOT. GO.THERE!
Why not murder? She is charged with threatening to kill. She then attacked him with a mallet - which caused his death.
How is that manslaughter?
A woman has been charged over the death of a former business high-flyer who died days after being repeatedly bashed with a mallet.
Natalie Ann Reader Van Breugel, 45, appeared in the Waitakere District Court charged with the manslaughter of Lance Bain.
Police allege she hit Mr Bain "numerous times" with a mallet. She has also been charged with causing grievous bodily harm and threatening to kill.
It is understood Van Breugel and Mr Bain were in a relationship.
'When Bad Crackie Relationships Go Worse' to be cont...
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| Shame she did not stay that way... |
***Update***
Guess what? Surprise, surprise - she is on NZdating!
Odd - she leaves the part where she will kill you with a hammer if she does not like what she finds in your phone - out of her profile.
Funny that.
Perhaps even just a mention of having abandonment issues, and not dealing well with rejection might be nice - and fair warning - to any poor man out there that is trolling that hideous website right now.
Do NZdating not have some kind of responsibility to ensure that their members are not facing charges of unlawful killing? You know like maybe - see a killer in the news - have a browse of your website to ensure your member's safety - kind of thing?
NZdating. DO. NOT. GO.THERE!
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| Surprise me and make me smile - or i will kill you with a hammer! |
January 15, 2012
Don't Be Afraid - 3
'The word of the Lord came to Abram...saying, "Do not be afraid."' Genesis 15:1 NKJV
After a miserable month of horrible weather and being stuck inside, the T and i decided to ignore the prospect of rain and head out to Piha anyway.
I just had the most wonderful day bush walking and swimming in waterfalls.
We only got rained on briefly, and had the best day ever.
That was just what i needed in order to fend off the depression that has been looming with every single rainy day we have had lately.
From now on - i am ignoring the weather reports.
The T is so awesome - taking me out and showing me those bush walks. I can't believe i have lived in New Zealand for over twenty years and never ventured further into the Waitakere Ranges than a quick trip to Piha.
Love, love, LOVE it out there.
William Shakespeare's romantic comedy, Much Ado About Nothing, has a title connected to the Biblical story of Jesus raising the daughter of Jairus from the dead. When Jairus went to Jesus for help, his daughter was critically ill. While he was walking with Jesus toward his home the little girl died. At that point Jesus told the devastated father, 'Do not be afraid; only believe' (Mark 5:36 NKJV). When they arrived at the house everybody was weeping. At this point Jesus asked, 'Why make ye this ado' (Mark 5:39 KJV)? The word 'ado' means 'commotion, clamour and uproar.' Then Jesus took the child by the hand and told her to get up. And to everyone's amazement, she did.
Now if Jesus can raise the dead, surely you don't have a problem He can't solve! The miracle was set in motion the moment Jairus went to Jesus. And by doing the same thing, you are positioning yourself to get the results you need. Are you going to make a great 'ado' or are you going to pray in faith, believing God to come through for you? How much energy and emotion are you wasting over things that will never materialise? Or things you can't control? How many more nights are you going to lie awake, staring at the ceiling, thinking about all the things that could possibly happen? Can you imagine how that makes God feel?
Claim this promise: 'I will lie down and sleep in peace, for You alone, O Lord, make me dwell in safety' (Psalm 4:8 NIV).
After a miserable month of horrible weather and being stuck inside, the T and i decided to ignore the prospect of rain and head out to Piha anyway.
I just had the most wonderful day bush walking and swimming in waterfalls.
We only got rained on briefly, and had the best day ever.
That was just what i needed in order to fend off the depression that has been looming with every single rainy day we have had lately.
From now on - i am ignoring the weather reports.
The T is so awesome - taking me out and showing me those bush walks. I can't believe i have lived in New Zealand for over twenty years and never ventured further into the Waitakere Ranges than a quick trip to Piha.
Love, love, LOVE it out there.
January 14, 2012
Don't Be Afraid - 2
'The word of the Lord came to Abram...saying, "Do not be afraid."' Genesis 15:1 NKJV
Ha. That reminds me of a conversation that i had regarding bungee jumping with Billy before he headed down to Queenstown.
He was excited at the prospect of possibly doing a bungee jump and i forbid him to do it. Well - i say i forbid him to do it but in reality if my 20 year old son wanted to jump head first from a bridge with a giant rubber band attached to his ankles while on a different island to the one that i am on, then well - there was not a lot that i could do to stop him - was there?
I tried to tell him that there is enough chance that we will die every day so why increase those odds and tempt fate?
He was having none of that though. He spouted off all the statistics regarding the chances of dying during a bungee accident. They went something like - "there is more chance of dying from choking on a steak while doing a handstand on a toilet on an airplane on your way to Timbuktu..." Etc. Etc. Etc.
My answer to that?
No more steak or airplane rides for Billy.
I was hoping that would shut him up.
It didn't.
Researchers have found that about forty percent of the things we worry about never happen. Thirty percent are in the past and can't be helped. Twelve percent involve the affairs of others that are not even our business. Ten percent relate to sickness, real or imagined. That means only eight percent of the things we worry about are even likely to happen! Scientists at Yale University have actually identified a 'worry gene'. But they say that while you may have inherited it, you can overcome it. Somebody has said that 'worry is just interest paid on trouble before it comes due.' And in most cases it never comes due.
Think; when you worry, there's a ninety-two percent chance you're paying interest on a debt that's not even yours! How foolish is that? Take the fear of flying, for example. You would have to fly every day for nineteen thousand years before the probability of being in a plane crash approaches 100%. Yet it is one of the six most feared causes of death.
Someone has said that there are three hundred and sixty-five 'fear nots' in the Bible-one for every day of the year. When you worry, you doubt God and give the devil an entry point into your life. How long have you been doing this? When are you going to stop it? Knowing that Abraham was leaving his comfort zone and his security base, God said, 'Do not be afraid, Abram. I am your shield, your very great reward' (Genesis 15:1 NIV). And today God's saying the same to you.
Ha. That reminds me of a conversation that i had regarding bungee jumping with Billy before he headed down to Queenstown.
He was excited at the prospect of possibly doing a bungee jump and i forbid him to do it. Well - i say i forbid him to do it but in reality if my 20 year old son wanted to jump head first from a bridge with a giant rubber band attached to his ankles while on a different island to the one that i am on, then well - there was not a lot that i could do to stop him - was there?
I tried to tell him that there is enough chance that we will die every day so why increase those odds and tempt fate?
He was having none of that though. He spouted off all the statistics regarding the chances of dying during a bungee accident. They went something like - "there is more chance of dying from choking on a steak while doing a handstand on a toilet on an airplane on your way to Timbuktu..." Etc. Etc. Etc.
My answer to that?
No more steak or airplane rides for Billy.
I was hoping that would shut him up.
It didn't.
January 13, 2012
Fotoshop by Adobe
Fotoshop by Adobé from Jesse Rosten on Vimeo.
I don't need Fotoshop - that is one of the benefits of being in love with a chubby chaser that loves curves!
He tries to feed me all day long, and keeps telling me my butt is not big enough.
Life. Is. Tough. These days. ;)
January 12, 2012
Grooming Day for Nixon
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| Nixon - getting a Brazilian ;) |
I can't afford another $70 dollar trip to the doggy hair salon for Nixon, so instead i invested $40 bucks in some hair trimmers so that i can just do it myself. It has taken all day and the job is not even close to being done.
It is a bit like doing a ten thousand million piece jigsaw puzzle - i decide i have had enough, put the trimmers down, grab a coffee, then walk past Nixon again and just can't help stopping to do a bit more.
Poor Nixon. Every time one of us looks at him - we attack him with the hair trimmers.
The T got the lovely job of shaving the dingle berries!
Oh and - Gee. It's raining.
Don't Be Afraid - 1
'The word of the Lord came to Abram...saying, "Do not be afraid."' Genesis 15:1 NKJV
A couple of nights ago i opened up my email and there was an email from a woman that i used to know in there waiting for me to read. I had written about her a few times. There was some bad feelings between the two of us back in the day, and i wrote about her while writing about my experiences. I had identified her on my blog - effectively naming and shaming her and her past/present - whatever it is these days. I felt justified at the time in doing this because of the things that she had done to me, and was saying about me.
The days when i wanted to hurt anyone that i knew while i was involved in that hideous life are well and truly gone now though. I have forgiven everyone - including her - and i had long ago removed her name from my blog. Well i thought i had anyway. It turned out that there were still a couple of references to her which i guess had been used against her on a public forum where prostitutes and their clients like to hang out and discuss whatever perverted things happen to be on their minds at any particular time.
Her email was asking me to remove those last couple of references to her that were still on my blog. I happily did so - and while i was doing that i ventured over to that forum to have a look at what drama had been unfolding.
The T and i sat here reading that hideous website together the other night. We did a search and found my old log in. All of my old postings and the things that people had to say about me back then are still on there. I went through it all with T here next to me, reading it all and it was just horrifying. I read things that i had posted about my experiences that i had completely forgotten. I read it and it was like i was reading someone else's typing. I was cold. I was hard. I was mean. I was foul mouthed. I was sad. I was lonely. I was heartbroken. I was desolate.
It upset the T to see the things that men had to say about me on a public forum. It upset me to read such a vivid reminder of how things once were for me, and who i once was. I think mentally, it took me back to a place where i had to be suspicious of every single person that i met, because every single person that i met was worse then the previous person that i had met - back when every single person that i knew did nothing but use me and take off me.
I then proceeded to spend all day yesterday being as mean as i possibly could be to the T. I picked at him over laundry. I picked at him over my kids. I picked at him over his kids. I accused him of just using me. I accused him of lying to me, and of cheating on me. I did everything in my power to create a big fight with the T until he sent me a text message that just said;
I guess yesterday was a reminder of how the past is never far, and scars are souvenirs that we never lose. It only took me reading my old self on a hideous website - to literally take me back to a place where i hated the world, and the world hated me - pretty much.
Reading that had the opposite effect on the T. While it caused me to decide that there was no possible way that he really loves me so i would be hideous to him - it caused him to feel and do the opposite. He felt the need to go for a run after we clicked that website away, and while he was running he was thinking of all of the ways that he could be better to me.
It didn't matter what i said or did to him yesterday - he chose to love me - until i came back to my senses.
I'm one lucky former crackho.
Now i need a medal for resisting the urge to do a HELLLOOO FREAKS thread on that hideous website!
I am too well behaved these days.
God asked Abraham to do a very difficult thing: '..."Leave your country...and your father's household and go to the land I will show you. I will make you into a great nation and I will bless you; I will make your name great, and you will be a blessing..." So Abram left, as the Lord had told him' (Genesis 12:1-4 NIV). If you're afraid of changing jobs, houses or locations, stand on this Scripture because as a redeemed child of God you are entitled to the blessing of Abraham.
All our fears basically come down to these two questions: First: 'Lord, will you protect me?' Secondly: 'Lord, will you provide for me?' With Abraham, God addresses both: 'Do not be afraid...I am your shield, your very great reward' (Genesis 15:1 NIV). The words, 'very great reward,' literally mean, 'I am your unfailing, inexhaustible, ever increasing source of supply.' Awesome! You don't have to go to anybody else for protection or provision; God's got you covered! And notice what happened next. God entered into a covenant with Abraham (Genesis 15:18); He said to him: 'I'll take care of you and your descendants as long as you live.'
But there was a problem. 'Then birds of prey came down on the [sacrifice], but Abram drove them away' (Genesis 15:11 NIV). There's a lesson here. Even though God has promised to take care of you, you must drive away the worries Satan sends to prey on your mind. How do you do that? By standing squarely on the promises God has made to you in His Word.
A couple of nights ago i opened up my email and there was an email from a woman that i used to know in there waiting for me to read. I had written about her a few times. There was some bad feelings between the two of us back in the day, and i wrote about her while writing about my experiences. I had identified her on my blog - effectively naming and shaming her and her past/present - whatever it is these days. I felt justified at the time in doing this because of the things that she had done to me, and was saying about me.
The days when i wanted to hurt anyone that i knew while i was involved in that hideous life are well and truly gone now though. I have forgiven everyone - including her - and i had long ago removed her name from my blog. Well i thought i had anyway. It turned out that there were still a couple of references to her which i guess had been used against her on a public forum where prostitutes and their clients like to hang out and discuss whatever perverted things happen to be on their minds at any particular time.
Her email was asking me to remove those last couple of references to her that were still on my blog. I happily did so - and while i was doing that i ventured over to that forum to have a look at what drama had been unfolding.
The T and i sat here reading that hideous website together the other night. We did a search and found my old log in. All of my old postings and the things that people had to say about me back then are still on there. I went through it all with T here next to me, reading it all and it was just horrifying. I read things that i had posted about my experiences that i had completely forgotten. I read it and it was like i was reading someone else's typing. I was cold. I was hard. I was mean. I was foul mouthed. I was sad. I was lonely. I was heartbroken. I was desolate.
It upset the T to see the things that men had to say about me on a public forum. It upset me to read such a vivid reminder of how things once were for me, and who i once was. I think mentally, it took me back to a place where i had to be suspicious of every single person that i met, because every single person that i met was worse then the previous person that i had met - back when every single person that i knew did nothing but use me and take off me.
I then proceeded to spend all day yesterday being as mean as i possibly could be to the T. I picked at him over laundry. I picked at him over my kids. I picked at him over his kids. I accused him of just using me. I accused him of lying to me, and of cheating on me. I did everything in my power to create a big fight with the T until he sent me a text message that just said;
Huh? That was not what he was supposed to say!
"The reality is that you are loved - but i am wondering if you can accept that?"
I guess yesterday was a reminder of how the past is never far, and scars are souvenirs that we never lose. It only took me reading my old self on a hideous website - to literally take me back to a place where i hated the world, and the world hated me - pretty much.
Reading that had the opposite effect on the T. While it caused me to decide that there was no possible way that he really loves me so i would be hideous to him - it caused him to feel and do the opposite. He felt the need to go for a run after we clicked that website away, and while he was running he was thinking of all of the ways that he could be better to me.
It didn't matter what i said or did to him yesterday - he chose to love me - until i came back to my senses.
I'm one lucky former crackho.
Now i need a medal for resisting the urge to do a HELLLOOO FREAKS thread on that hideous website!
I am too well behaved these days.
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