You need to establish some spiritual landmarks in your life to remind you of the times when God intervened on your behalf. Someone said, 'We're not slow learners, just quick forgetters.' How soon we forget, or claim credit for, things we had little to do with.
When God parted the Jordan River for His people to cross over, He knew something they didn't - that on the other side they would face some big challenges, including the City of Jericho. That's when they would need 'reminders'. So He told them to collect twelve stones from the Jordan and build a monument, so they and their children would recall His past faithfulness to them. Samuel did the same after Israel defeated the Philistines. He took a stone and named it Ebenezer, meaning, 'Thus far the Lord has helped us' (1 Samuel 7:12 NKJV). Before you give in to discouragement, doubt or defeat, stop and recall what God has done for you 'thus far'. Like the day you met Jesus, or the times He guided you, or the doors He opened that you thought were permanently shut, or the scrapes He brought you through. Keep a record of these events and refer to it often. It will help you to remember His goodness when you tend to forget it. It will give you a sense of gratitude for yesterday's blessings, and confidence to face whatever tomorrow brings.
'This I call to mind and therefore I have hope: Because of the Lord's great love we are not consumed, for His compassions never fail. They are new every morning; great is Your faithfulness' (Lamentations 3:21-23 NIV).
Keep a record of these events and refer to them often.
I have been reminded over the past few days of all the challenges i have faced - all the doubt, discouragement and darn near defeat and have been given the hugest reminder of how much my life has changed and how much God has done for me.
While i have been waiting up for T every night i have been reading all my old posts from back in 2009. Someone else who had read them recently emailed me and told me that i was "sitting on a gold mine" ...and how i need to do that book. I kind of thought that she was exaggerating at the time and just trying to flatter me but after the last couple of nights and reading about some of the experiences that i had back then and when i was involved in that hideous life - i am so glad that i wrote it all down - because i had forgotten most of that.
I can't believe that i survived!
Anyway - i have decided that i am no longer going to comment re what Erin Brokovich is doing on my blog and the levels that she is going to in order stalk me. As creepy as it is and as much as i think i have a right to write about it - i don't think doing that is doing anything but making the situation worse. It just fuels her. So i am going to follow my own advice that i gave to her last victim prior to me - and ignore, ignore, ignore.
I will still have everything documented. I am just not going to write about it or give her any more attention. That is what she wants. The worst thing you can do to people like her - the worst insult you can give them - is ignore them. That is exactly what i am going to do. Unless i am served court papers - that is the end of her drama.
Blogging will always attract an element of fruity loopiness to it. You just have to take the good with the bad sometimes.
Right - i hate mornings, i need another bathroom, and i need a dog sitter. T and i both in classes for the rest of the week and that means Nixon in the car and us having to race back to it and walk him in between lectures in order to prevent him from ending up in doggie jail - which is what would happen if he was left home alone.
I don't like mornings at all. Is it the weekend yet....