David committed adultery with another man's wife, got her pregnant, then arranged to have her husband put to death in an attempt to cover it up. Then he married her and thought everything would be ok. But the child became critically ill. Desperately wanting to save the baby's life, David '...fasted and went into his house and spent the nights lying on the ground. The elders of his household stood beside him to get him up from the ground, but he refused, and he would not eat any food...' (vv16-17 NIV). In spite of all his praying, the child died.
Why did God let this happen? Was it because the child deserved better parents? Or because the Bible says that to depart and be with the Lord is 'far better' (Philippians 1:23)? We don't have a clear answer. But this much we know: when you have repented of your sin and experienced God's forgiveness, you must get up and go on with your life. And that's what David did. 'Then David got up from the ground...washed, put on lotions and changed his clothes...went into the house of the Lord and worshipped. Then he went to his own house, and...they served him food, and he ate' (2 Samuel 12:20 NIV).
We discover three important things in this story: (1) Until you are willing to make things right with God and those you've hurt, you can't go forward with confidence. (2) Until you process your emotions in a healthy way, whether guilt or grief, you will remain stuck and forfeit the joy of what God has for you next. (3) When you've done these two things, get up and get on with your life.
Isn't that truth?
I am totally lost today. I have the whole day to myself - at home - all alone - no teenagers and no T. It is my only day off this week and everyone has left me alone.
Half of me is jumping for joy and wondering how i can make the most of this rare time alone. The other half of me is feeling sad because i miss everyone.
The only noise i can hear right now is a distant lawn mower and the occasional ear flapping and licking of his bits coming from Nixon.
I think i will mow my own lawn, then get busy in my garden for awhile. I googled veggies that grow at this time of year, so i think i will do some garden preparation since my tomatoes are the last thing i have left growing - and start over. I didn't realise that there were so many veggies that grew over the winter months.
I have a Sociology assignment due in 2 weeks. I have to do a 15 minute presentation on the social and cultural factors in my own socialisation that may have formed my views on alcohol and drug use. I am thinking right now that it would be more beneficial for me to do a study on the social and cultural factors that have led me to have my enormous fear of public speaking and why having to do a presentation scares me more than a one million word essay would.
I think this may have something to do with me spending far too much time behind my computer screen these past few years.
I better get to work.