The one thing we can count on in life is change. We try to resist it but it says, 'Ready or not, here I come.' In order to grow stronger through change we must give up, wise up and toughen up.
First, don't be an escape artist, trying to avoid the stress that accompanies change. There is no escape; change is inevitable. Stop regarding it as an enemy and make it your friend. Only when you decide to ride the horse in the direction it's going will you get to where you need to be. Secondly, when we're hit with sudden change, our 'fight or flight' instincts aren't very good at handling it. But there's a solution. By entrusting our lives fully into God's care and asking for His wisdom, '...God's kindness is trying to lead to Him and change...' (Romans 2:4 GWT). God loves us the way we are, but He loves us too much to leave us that way. Finally, someone quipped, 'If it wasn't for stress, I'd have no energy at all.' Stop and take inventory. Are you making it harder on yourself than it needs to be? Are you speaking faith or fear? Are you convincing yourself you can't handle the changes? Are you ready to give up without even trying, or trusting God?
If you're struggling to make sense of the situation you're in, read these words: '...when your faith is tested, your endurance has a chance to grow. So let it...for when your endurance is fully developed, you will be strong in character and ready for anything...' (James 1:3-4 NLT).
Change is something that i still struggle with.
I never used to. My whole life before that drug, i loved change. In fact, i was addicted to change. I was always buying and selling homes because i got sick of where i was living and wanted to live somewhere different. I was always changing jobs. Heck, i even changed husbands. I was never happy with how things were at any point in time and was always trying to change things.
I have gone from one extreme to the other and i am not sure which one is more unhealthy!
I think the constant dissatisfaction that i used to feel with my life - i used to always feel like there had to be something better, something more to life than just THIS - and where that constant desire for change landed me has caused the huge fear of change that i now struggle with.
Landing myself in such a dark place, and realising that i should have always been happy and satisfied with everything that i had been blessed with, has caused me to go completely the other way. I live in a constant state of satisfaction, and probably complacency regarding things that i actually do need to change.
I need to change that. There has to be a happy middle ground regarding change, and i need to find it. I adore my life now, but there are things that i could do to improve it and my future, so i need to stop being terrified of change, and do them.
Right - "Harry" got dropped off here yesterday afternoon. It took everything i had in me not to wander out to her mother's car and talk to her. Odd that she is just happy to drop her at the end of the driveway, and not come in without making sure that i am not sitting here smoking P with gang members or something!
I dropped Harry and Nicole off at another of Nicole's friend's places for the night last night. No doubt taxi service will hailed soon. I am looking forward to hearing how their night went. In the meantime though - i might go back to sleep...just for a little while.
I had weirdo dreams all night, about people that i have not thought about in forever. I wonder why that happens?