Never one to complain or anything ...

Butttt

I have to mention this. Just briefly.

Nicole's phone rang earlier.

It went to voicemail

It was Fred.

Following ok so far???

Cool...cause here is where i get lost...

Fred left a message on Nicole's voice mail, telling her that there is a family reunion at a local beach near where she lives, and that everyone would love to see her, Jorgia, and ME....there.

Ok so i asked what Fred's tone of voice was like...was it sarcastic, or her fake nice voice? Apparently it was the fake nice voice.

Now, i am certainly NOT complaining about the fact that my mother...Fred...has stopped directing every ounce of energy that she has at hating me, and being a pain in the butt to every government department that exists, trying to get me put in prison, or not be able to see my children...

BUT....

Is there not an in between place...where you actually apologise? Maybe even ask forgiveness for totally not caring when i was a drug addicted hooker, then doing everything possible to hinder my recovery...and inviting me to a family BBQ and expecting everything to just be ok?

Here is how i see it

Hating me my whole life...trying to get me put in prison...trying to set me back while recovering from a drug addiction....not caring enough to even phone me and tell me she loves me when i was a hooker on drugs....trying to make it that i can't see my children once i have recovered...








WHOLE BIG SPACE IN BETWEEN








Enjoying family BBQs together....

Am i nuts? Or what?

Needless to say...we are not attending the family BBQ at Eastern Beach today.