Going Easy

Go easy. You may have to push forward, but you don't have to push so hard. Go in gentleness, go in peace.

Do not be in such a hurry. At no day, no hour, no time are you required to do more than you can do in peace.

Frantic behaviours and urgency are not the foundation for our new way of life.

Do not be in too much of a hurry to begin. Begin, but do not force the beginning if it is not time. Beginnings will arrive soon enough.

Enjoy and relish middles, the heart of the matter.

Do not be in too much of a hurry to finish. You may be almost done, but enjoy the final moments. Give yourself fully to those moments so that you may give and get all there is.

Let the pace flow naturally. Move forward. Start. Keep moving forward. Do it gently, though. Do it in peace. Cherish each moment.

Today, God, help me focus on a peaceful pace rather than a harried one. I will keep moving forward gently, not frantically. Help me let go of my need to be anxious, upset, and harried. Help me replace it with a need to be at peace and in harmony.

Phew...i like this one a LOT. I am in no way at risk of doing ANYTHING in a hurry at the moment. I can barely stay awake! Honestly...if it was not for Nixon or the girls this week, i don't think i would have even gotten out of bed. I am moving so slow at the moment, that i have to speed up to go backwards!

I drove out to Howick at 3pm this afternoon to pick up the girls...but when i got to Ann's place, she came outside and said that the girls were not there because Nicole had soccer practice until 5pm...i just about started snoring, standing there in Ann's driveway, at the thought of having to hang around for an hour and a half waiting for them.

I had a quick visit with Ann, then headed off to find my girls. Jorgia was walking home and i found her at the bottom of the street...We went back to Ann's for a little while, so she could get a drink and ran into my little adopted daughter Melissa...who is now ungrounded and allowed to come stay with us next week over the school holidays!!! yay cause she has been grounded FOREVER and i have not even seen her since January, because she now goes to a different school than the one that Jorgia goes to...anywayyyy.

Nicole rang just after 4 and was finished with soccer. Thank goodness for that. We made it home in rush hour traffic by about half past 5. I have never been so happy to get home...not that i can remember right now anyway...my eyes are heavy, even when i'm up and about, doing things. I am constantly yawning...and all i want to do is crawl back into bed and go to sleep.

I let the girls have Macdonalds...from Pt Chev Macdonalds!!! The one that lady supposedly found the maggot in her burger at! Just because i could not face cooking. I did not tell them the maggot story...so lets just keep that little bit of news quiet haha...i did however check their food. I don't believe the maggot story anyway...stories like that are always urban legends....right??? That's my story and i am sticking to it.

So my girls go back to Nick's place until Tuesday, tomorrow morning. I really hope that by the time i get them back on Tuesday...these pills have settled back into my system, and i no longer feel so drowsy, sleepy, and tired. Just moving is a mission right now. Nixon and i have the whole long weekend to sleep.

I have been trying to remember what i was doing last Easter...but i can't. I just remember that i hated weekends so much back then, so it would not have been a fun weekend...but i can't remember what i did. I can remember Easter weekend 5 years ago...but i can't remember last Easter. Aren't our brains wonderful things...how we tend to remember the good, and forget the bad?

I am going to put a documentary on now, and be asleep in 5 minutes, so that Jorgia can steal the laptop off me.

Goodnight x