Over the past week or so, i have been, not so much shocked, but more interested in a "Nothing surprises me anymore" way, in relation to someone that i know and the seemingly double life that he has led for several years.
This is a person that offered me support and advice, and showed concern for my well being while i was in a terrible place, and while i climbed out of that terrible place, and got my life to a place where it is now better than ever.
A week ago, the woman that he had told me he "was so in love that when he looked in to this woman's eyes he saw everything that he wanted for his future" ...received a phone call from his wife.
It was not even a long distance call...despite his wife being dead for the past several years, according to what he told everyone in his little imaginary second life. I am sure this was a surprise to her, when she found out she was dead.
I am not going to rattle on about how his actions have not really surprised me all that much, and how they just remind me of how hideous 99.9% of the people that i met while involved in such a hideous and seedy life, were. How they just remind me of why i am so glad that i changed my life and do not have to have people like that in my life anymore. Everyone knows how happy i am to have moved on, and only have good people in my life now.
The woman that he was so in love with, until his wife reincarnated, is a prostitute. They met when he made a booking with her. That is when they "fell in love"...although in my (maybe all too realistic eyes) i don't see where any relationship could possibly go, after paying the other for sex/having sex with the other for money. I just don't believe in the old "Pretty Woman" fairytale...i make no apologies for that.
Anyway...when these two met, the woman stopped working as a prostitute. She was relieved to do so, and thought that she would never again, have to do that kind of work ...ever again.
She was right...despite the fact that this man turned out to be a deceptive snake who appears to have broken her heart...she never had to return to being a prostitute.
She has though.
I have something that i have wanted to say about this, for the past week or so, and until now, i have been quiet. I can't any longer though.
No one HAS to live that life, and you will only ever get away from that world, once you decide that you are better than that, and quit for yourself. Don't wait till you have something else, like a relationship, to quit that hideous life for. Quit it because you know that you are better than that and you want to quit for yourself.
Quitting for anyone other than yourself will always be a fail.
In New Zealand, no one has to be a prostitute. Our socialised economy takes care of the basic essentials for anyone who needs help. I have been broke, and on the bones, while waiting for the conclusion to my court case, and now while i get on with my sentence etc...
BUT...every week i have a roof over my head, food in my fridge, and all of the other bare essentials that i need. Would i like to have a lot more money to do lots of things with? I sure would. Would i resort to that kind of life, in order to get that money?
That is because i quit that kind of seedy life for ME. I am more important and better than money, or material possessions. So is everyone else that is involved in a life of prostitution and / or drugs.
Quit that life, for YOURSELF. YOU are better than that.
On that note...i am going back to sleep.