Accepting imperfection

"Why do i do this to myself?" asked a woman who wanted to lose weight. "I went to my support group feeling so guilty and ashamed because i ate half a cookie that was not on the diet. I found out that everyone cheats a little, and some people cheat a lot. I felt so ashamed before i came to the group, as though i were the only one not doing my diet perfectly. Now i know that i am dieting as well as most, and better than some."

Why do we do this to ourselves? I am not talking strictly about dieting; I am talking about life. Why do we punish ourselves by thinking that we are inferior, while believing that others are perfect- whether in relationships, recovery, or a specific task?

Whether we are judging ourselves or others, it's two sides of the same coin: perfection. Neither expectation is valid.

It is far more accurate and beneficial to tell ourselves that who we are is ok and what we are doing is good enough. That does not mean we won't make mistakes that need correcting; doesn't mean we won't get off track from time to time; doesn't mean we can't improve. It means with all our mistakes and wandering, we're basically on course. Encouraging and approving of ourselves is how we help ourselves stay on track.

Today, I will love and encourage myself. I will tell myself that what i am doing is good enough, and i will let myself enjoy that feeling.

Hmmm i think there must be someone out there that reads my blog that must have needed this message tonight. I don't really have a problem in this area. I am overly proud of how far i have come and of my life these days. There is not one thing that i can think of that i am ashamed of anymore. This is mostly thanks to my friends and family, that have offered me their unconditional love, support, encouragement, and lack of judgement.

I am the shizzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz ...and i know it. bahhahhaa

I have a roast chicken, cooking in my oven right now...I am cooking it with a light coating of butter and Cajun spices and it smells yummmmmyyyy...Since i am here all by myself until next Wednesday, i think that pretty much means that my $9.00 frozen chicken (size 18) on special from Pak n Save...is going to feed me via chicken wraps and sandwiches until it is either all gone or has gone off and i need to biff it in order to avoid a nasty bout of compilabacta.

I miss the girls right now, and will miss them all weekend...however, it sure is peaceful here at the moment...peaceful and clean.

I have a 1000 piece puzzle (Thank you Ann!) that i am going to make it my mission to finish before Wednesday, so that i can swap it for another one! ( Ann has like 12 of them) In fact i will make it my mission to complete all of them by the end of my sentence haha

I have the big ex real estate cardboard sign / mobile puzzle table all set up and ready for action! yeeehhaaaa i am living life on the edge! hehe I love it.

Goodnight. xoxo