I have had a FANTASTIC day today.
I slept in til like 11am, after being up texting and emailing, during the night. The girls and i headed out to Howick, and met up with Nick. I gave them huge hugs goodbye, and told them i would see them tomorrow after they have had their Christmas Day with the Jones family.
I raced home because i had a friend popping in for a lunch visit. He surprised me with a Christmas present of flowers, Kings Plant Barn vouchers...and a second hand laptop for Jorgia. Now i just have to spend this evening figuring out how to get it connected to my wireless connection.
You know what that means though don't you??? No more "Give me the flipping laptop NOW mum" eyes while the girls are here. yiiippeeeee
I felt truly spoiled after those surprises...
My phone rang this morning and it was Orlando! I have not heard his voice in 4 years. I recognised it straight away, like i had only just spoken to him yesterday. I have spent hours on the phone with him today. We have 4 years to catch up on and only just touched the surface today. I have told him everything about my life, since we last spoke.
I will never have anyone in my life, that does not accept me for me...and that includes my past. I should have known that he would always be here for me, no matter what. Part of me wishes that i had not left it so long to contact him...but part of me is glad that i left it until now. Now just felt and feels right.
I will never let him go from my life again. Not for the world.
He told me that he did not like Danny from the moment that he met him. I asked him why he didn't tell me. Then i thought what a stupid question, as if it would have mattered on my wedding day. Orlando only met Danny during the weekend that he came up from Christchurch for the wedding. I saw him one more time after that, while we were living in Mt Wellington, and he says now that he was gutted to see me in the state that i was in...so obviously unhappy. He said he didn't know how to help.
That was the last time i saw or spoke to him...until today.
I spilled my guts to him on the phone...i told him everything. He said that he already knew some of it, because i had met a friend of his. I remember meeting a couple of people that knew him, actually...but not the one that he told me about today. Ha...funny that. New Zealand is far too small sometimes.
I talked to him the whole time i have been out doing food shopping, and buying seeds and a watering can at the plant barn....i am going to spend tomorrow morning, while i am alone...in my garden. He was on his way up to Blenheim to spend the evening and tomorrow with his family...then he is back off down to Timaru.
He is not back at work till mid January. I explained that i have a probation visit on the 5th...but that i can fly down to visit him on the 6th and don't have to be back in Auckland till my next probation visit a fortnight later...so that is what i am going to do!
I cannot WAIT to see him.
I surprised myself today, and started crying while i was telling him everything. I type about that life ALOT...but i don't actually SPEAK out loud about it all that often...except to Dan, in a joking way. It was hard to tell Orlando everything that happened with Danny, then how i did the Jen thing, then the drugs. It is hard to speak out loud about it to someone that i care so much about, in a serious way.
I cried in Foodtown. Mental.
Then i wandered back to my car, unpacked everything, into my boot, and pushed my trolley over to the trolley bay area thingie...and there was a purse, sitting in a trolley. It was a nice expensive purse, with a big fat wallet in it. I looked around to see if the owner was anywhere to be found. No one was around. I picked it up, and got back in my car, to head to the nearest police station...thinking someone's Christmas just went bad.
Then i noticed that there was a cell phone in the bag, and thought damn that sucks for that person. I was driving along looking for a police station when i realised that i could probably just contact the owner via their cell phone. So i pulled over, and rang the last dialled number in the phone. I got some guy named Bruce in Christchurch. I explained to him that i had his friend's purse, and he took my details and thanked me over and over...that made me feel good.
The owner of the purse has just left my place after collecting it. She was so grateful to me, and gave me twenty bucks from her wallet. I didn't want to take it but she insisted. That was really nice of her...but i did that remembering the whole time how i felt recently after leaving my wallet on top of my car. I was so lucky that someone handed it in.
She told me i had saved her Christmas. That was enough reward for me!
I have had the most wonderful Christmas Eve ever. I don't even mind that i am alone right now. In fact i am enjoying my little break from the girls.
The package of presents that my sister Tracey sent for the girls arrived today in the mail too!
Could things be any better right now? Why no...i don't think they could.
I am truly blessed this Christmas. Every change that i have made to myself and my life...every struggle that i have gone through over the last four years...and especially this year, has been worth it. I would not have believed it, if you had told me 6 months ago...that i would be as happy as i am today, by the end of the year.
Life is good.
I can't wait to see Orlando. He told me today that he wishes he had just dragged me to Christchurch with him when he moved. I told him today that out of all the friends/exes that i have, he is the only one that i should have trusted. I never trusted Orlando back when our friendship had turned into more...yet i trusted Danny completely, and without questions...until the end.
I don't get how my judgement could have been so wrong. Hindsight....I am just so happy that the years and everything that has happened during those years, has not tarnished our friendship, or how much we care about each other.