Crazy Sexy Cancer

"Why, when we are challenged to survive, do we give ourselves permission to truly live?"

I watched Oprah again yesterday, in between gardening, running, cooking, witnessing people that i used to know doing drug deals in a park, contemplating whether or not two friendships in my life, are worth fighting to keep, and visits from a probation officer.

I'm glad i did.

I was glued to it. This woman, Kris Carr, truly is, an amazing and inspirational woman.

I slept in this morning. I had a terrible sleep overnight, and i am just tired and feeling blah today. Maybe it is the weather, that is making me feel this way. Maybe it is having two people that i have placed so much value in their friendship, let me down. Maybe it is thinking about Christmas looming, and knowing how much of a financial drain it is going to be, when i desperately just want to keep my bills up to date and paid on time.

Maybe it is just life, in general.

I don't feel much like writing in here right now. I just woke up. It is 10am. I am hoping i will feel better after i drag my ass out of bed and wake up properly.

I will let you know, the outcome, when i have managed to do just that.

Good morning.
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