Today was so beautiful

It was just like summer. I lazed around in bed until about noon, trying my hardest to think up a justifiable excuse to stay there. I stuck my head out of my bedroom window, hoping for freezing cold gale force winds, that would make me slam the window shut and think...f&ck going out there.

Instead there was not even a breeze. It was warmer outside than it was in my bedroom.

So i got up. I managed to clean my place from top to bottom and inside out. The girls always leave a  hurricane of mess behind. I hand washed 2 bathtubs full of laundry, then hung it out to drip dry on the clothes line. I finally remembered to buy pegs, so at least my neighbours no longer end up with my underwear all over their lawn. I have the hugest clothes line and there is not room for one more tiny thing on it right now. Not even one of those retarded little tiny socks that come off.


Then i went for my big walk. I had not done any exercise during the second week of the school holidays. Not since our visit to the Panmure Basin, a week ago Friday. The weather had been too gross. During that week, i had lost motivation to do any more exercise. It's funny (as in weird) how it can be so enjoyable to exercise, and you know it makes you feel so good but once you get out of the habit, it is so hard to find the motivation to get back to that routine that you had going on.

I find it extremely hard. I did not want to go at all today...until about 5 minutes after i got out there. I feel fantastic for forcing myself. I bounced along to my music, with a big smile on my face. The sun and the fresh air felt good. I changed my route again slightly, so that i had different things to look at and think about. I love looking at all the big old houses around here.

I had to remind myself, before forcing myself out the door...that Dr Lee had said that part of my crazy waking up all night thing that i have going on...could be due to the fact that i had stopped my walks, therefore i was not as tired at the end of the day. That made sense. I really want to get back to having good sleeps. I hate waking up every hour, all night long. It is not even as if i have a hard time going back to sleep...i usually get up, go to the loo...look on here, then fall straight back to sleep...it is more that it makes the nights last so much longer than if i just go to sleep and wake up in the morning.

So i did my 7 k walk. Had dinner. Watched some TV....took a bath...and now i am back in bed, hoping like hell that i do not wake up til the sun is up...at the very least. I will do my walk twice tomorrow if i wake up all night tonight.

I hope everyone got out there and enjoyed that sunshine. It is almost time for that bottle of fake tan to come out again, so that i don't blind anyone with my whiteness when i decide to wear shorts.

Night. x