Just to make my sister, Tracey, jealous. She has the dreamy husband...and i have....Piha.
Short stick anyone? haha
Moving right along.
I had forgotten how long and windy Scenic Drive is. By the time i got out there, the sun was going down and it was bloody windy and cold. So i will be honest and admit to other than my gardening, i did not exercise today. I am sure i will live to see another day.
I came back home, and didn't get back here til dark. I heated myself up some soup, ate that while i watched TV, and had a bath. Now, here i am back in my favourite place, in my nanna nightie, and about to put on a documentary, and fall asleep.
I have had better sleeps the last couple of nights. I am still waking up a couple (or three or four) times a night, but i am not getting up. I just put my doco back on and fall straight back to sleep. I don't know what i would do without my laptop and the Internet. I would feel so damn isolated.
My laptop is like my best friend. I did not realise, when i purchased it, how much i would come to rely on it. I bought it in late Feb...i remember for the first 3 weeks all i did was play with the appearance settings and type in all my phone numbers into the contacts thing. I did not even go on the Internet. I had not missed it. It's so addictive, i guess. At least i have used it in a positive way. My blog still continues to help me. I am reading a book at the moment about recovering from addictions. The first chapter is all about talking and telling your story and how people that are recovering from bad experiences need to do that.
Obviously, i felt an overwhelming need to do that. It was good to read in that book that my rants on my blog, are just a normal part of my recovery. It was like confirmation that i was not weird to want to continue to talk, all the time about the things that i have witnessed and been through. I don't have many people to talk to. My blog has helped save my life.
I know people read it. A lot of people read it every day. Even if no one read it though...i would still be here ranting to myself. It helps me a lot.
Anyway...I am going to put a doco on and crash. I did lots of digging, and clearing of dug up grass and weeds. I spread my smelly compost all over the garden where i am going to plant...i hung a boat load of laundry out. I drove to Piha and back. I got new tyres for my car. I listened to my ipod while lying on my back in the grass, with my eyes closed, and enjoyed the sun on my face.
I'm wiped. Exercise for me tomorrow OK.