October 29, 2009

I am starting a course tonight...

I am really looking forward to it. It is an 8 week course, that i will go to every Thursday night. It is run by an outfit called Inner City Women's Group...and their courses are aimed at preventing violence.

I have been an angry person for much of my life. I no longer feel the anger that i used to feel, but i want to understand it better, and learn how to manage it better, in the event that i ever do feel consumed by angry feelings, like i used to feel.

Anger is just a sign that something is not right. It is a normal feeling and i guess, just like every other feeling that we experience, there are right and wrong ways to manage them. My ex husband had told his ex flatmate that i was the worst mother in the world. My response to her was that in some ways...he was right. I did not know how to express myself when the kids had made me angry, so i used to just yell and swear at them all the time. Obviously, that was not an effective way to deal with them. Not every bad thing that he has told people about me has been untrue.

I always wanted to be a good person. I just did not know how. I had so much anger inside me over things that had happened in my life and i did not know how to express it, or get it out of my system.

I had an angry heart.

I no longer have an angry heart, but i want to be sure that i deal with it better, if that anger ever comes back.

The topics that are covered in the course that i am taking are...

- Undserstanding what anger is
- What lies beneath it
- Cool down tool kit
- Understanding family conflict roles
- Learning safe ways to express anger
- Developing new skills and strategies
- Effects of anger on self and others
- Learning to communicate so others will listen

The improvements that i am making to myself and my life are far from done. I will continue to try to improve myself and be a better person, until the day that i die. I am a work in progress. :-)

I am looking forward to starting this tonight, and who knows...i might even make some more friends.  I am getting the kids tonight because the class goes for 2 hours and i don't want to leave Nixon alone.

YAY for getting the kids.

Back later....it's our run time.

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