I was in hospital, and Tans did me the hugest favour and organised movers to move the big things for me. She did not realise that the fridge was not mine. The moving company and Tans brought the fridge here with all my other big things. It was here when i got home from hospital.
Returning it has been in the too hard basket all this time. I can't lift it, it won't fit in my car, i don't have a tow bar...and returning it would force me to go up to Danny's Dad's house and get my fridge and washing machine, that is apparently there...and i have no way of doing that either. I can't lift them and they won't fit in my car.
I can't afford movers. I need help with this...but right now i have to worry about being in trouble for stealing a fridge! It's almost funny really. I always refused to resort to stealing and ripping people off and now i am in trouble for it anyway.
If i had intentionally stolen it, i would have taken the washing machine and dryer as well. James said hopefully i can just return it. God knows how i will do that but where there is a will there is a way...so they say. It will be one less thing gone from my too hard basket, i suppose. I really need my things back from Danny.
UGH - that was confession time again people. I stole a fridge while i was in hospital. arrrghhhhhhhhhh It's not even a good fridge either. The whole time i was at the apartment it either totally froze things even in the fridge...(frozen lettuce not nice) or ice cubes just remained water.
I do have to admit to not being overly concerned when i got home from hospital and saw it here. That move was so horrible and hard to do on my own and i was so sick. I really did not give a toss at the time.
ugh...
I will have to pay movers to come get it. I live on nothing...everything goes on rent and into the kids stomachs or petrol to drive them back and forth from Howick. I want to go back to work but not until everything is cleared up from that life. I don't want to start a new job and have to ask to take time off to go to court.
uuuuuuuuuugggggggggggghhhhhhhhhhhh I am so NOT wanting to deal with the Baillies to get my stuff back.
Rant and confession over. As you were.
My God...i so wish i had known how much grief that drug was going to bring my life. I had virtually no contact with the police in my life until this year. Now i can ring them and say " hi it's me" hahahahha
This is sooo not funny. That drug is evil and anyone that touches it, is a total and complete MORON. Everything on my criminal record is from things i said and did while on that stupid f%cking drug.
Makes me so mad..how bad i have f%cked up. I am going to be dealing with my f*ck ups for some time to come, i guess. Part of me wishes that i could turn back time and not have done any of this...but part of me knows that everything i have been through, and every destructive thing i did, has made me a better person than i was before...because i came out the other side with a new appreciation for just how fortunate i really i am to be me.
I know that the crap that i am dealing with now is just God's way of making sure that i NEVER forget how bad it was. It is his way of making sure that i NEVER contemplate going back. He is teaching me a lesson, well and good. And that is ok. I need this lesson to be ingrained into my skull. Every bad thing like this is a blessing really. I would rather have to deal with this crap, than be tempted to return to that life. If i had no bad crap to still be dealing with...i would not look back with shivers going up my spine.
Every time i am reminded of that crappy life that i lead for too damn long...reminds me of how strong i am to have survived and come out the other end a better person. I KNOW that more positive things will keep happening to me.
Just not today. haha These bad things i am dealing with are by far easier to deal with than the temptation to do that drug again. I am glad that i don't have to deal with that anymore.
Rant and confession time over....for reals this time. ha
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PS...positive just happened. A friend just rang and is stopping by for a visit and bringing me smokessssssssss....real ones too not rollie crap ones. I was going to have to go without until tomorrow! yay!!!!!
I know i need to quit smoking. Just not today.
I smoke...f&ck off.
***update***
I may have escaped being in anymore trouble. That means returning it...which also means getting my fridge and washing machine from the Baillies. The thought of that scares me. I will think about that later. Right now i am off to get the girls...i hope the traffic is not too crappy. Boobs on bikes was today, according to Dan. Trust him to know. The weather is too crappy for my walk as well.
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