There is nothing sexy about P

This is how skinny i got. These were photos that a photographer took of me to check the lighting. There is nothing sexy about being this skinny and having your head look too big for your body. I weighed 45kg in these photos and i thought this was sexy. There is nothing sexy about the veins in your groin being noticeable. Looking at these makes me feel ill now. I can't believe i thought i still looked normal and no one would be able to tell. There is nothing sexy about hip bones jutting out.

Gross. The worst ones got deleted too. That's the worst thing. These photos actually make me look bigger than i was. I deleted a whole bunch at the time that had really bad veins all popping out of my groin. Foul. I wish i had not deleted the really bad ones now. I remember the photographer laughing at me and telling me i was the only girl he knew that was worried about looking too skinny. The only one that he had to try to make look bigger.

Crazy.

Good morning sunshines! I am dragging my lazy bum out of bed this morning and going on my walk. I don't feel like doing that right now because i still feel a bit blah but i know my walk will cure that.

Back soon. x