I had stopped dreaming

I never thought about this until recently. I'm not sure when it stopped. I did not notice that it had stopped at the time. At some stage over the last 18 months, from the time i left Waiuku and moved to Mt Eden until recently, i had stopped having dreams while i was asleep.

Maybe i had not really stopped dreaming. Maybe my brain just stopped remembering them. Maybe my brain blocked them out because they were only ever bad. Maybe they stopped because i just rarely went to sleep and when i did, it was after a week long binge. Maybe I just crashed so hard that my sleep was so deep and i did not remember any dreams that i might have had while asleep.

Whatever, the cause was...i stopped dreaming. Until recently.

Lately, i have been waking up, feeling content and happy after having good dreams that i can actually remember, after i have woken. I have been having dreams about people that i have not even thought about in so long. Dreams about people that i don't even know. I have those dreams that make you wake up feeling so good that you just want to go back to sleep so that the dream can continue.

And no...before you even think it...NOT sexy time dreams! Just normal dreams, that allow me to wake up feeling all happy and warm, with a smile on my face before i even realise that it is a new day.

I'm not sure how i could have stopped doing something like that without noticing, or missing the fact that i no longer did it. I guess it is just another one of those things that i never appreciated before. The only reason i realised i had stopped dreaming, is because i started doing it again.

I never realised until recently, how good it feels to dream. I had never thought about how happy dreams make me feel. It amazes me every day, how many things i took for granted until July 12Th.

On that note...Good Morning Sunshine! It has to be a beautiful, gorgeous day out there because despite having a sweatshirt over my jammies and still being under my covers...i am absolutely freezing my tits off! OH MY GOSH...it is SOOOOOO cold this morning. My tits were too expensive to let freeze off...I am crawling back all the flipping way under my covers!!!!!!!!!!

YIKES...i am staying here for at LEAST 2 more hours. ROLL on summer! I am spending every day this summer out in the sunshine with my daughters, to make up for not leaving that apartment at all last summer...except at night.

Jorgia and i have gardening to do today. My veggies have gotten too large for my little miniature greenhouse so we are going to plant them in my little plot and then plant another lot in the miniature greenhouse. Doing this in cycles should ensure that we have fresh veggies all summer...instead of having them all ready to eat at once and having to have a major pig out on veggies all within a couple weeks. We will plant another lot in the green house this weekend and in a month they will be ready, like the ones that we have to transplant today...and then we will do another lot.

That should ensure three months of fresh veggies out of my garden this summer. The only things that have not sprouted up yet are the capsicum...not sure what their deal is. We will have to look into that today.

I am crawling ...toes to eyeballs, back down under the covers again. Back later x