I feel fat

Oh my GOD...i just ate the hugest chicken salad and french stick drowned in ranch salad dressing and a coffee with 3 spoonfuls of sugar and caramel syrup in it.

I am going to roll my 7 ks today.

Right now, i wish i had a boyfriend so that i could irritate him all day long asking him if he thinks i have gained weight, am i fat...does my butt look big??? Do I look FAT in this???? What is the point in binging like this til i am about to pop if i can't at least get some joy out of it by annoying the hell out of some poor sod that thought i was attractive at one time....back when i was slim? arrghhh