August 10, 2009
I have lots of things to think about and literally NOTHING to worry about. Today is the first day in 18 months that i have woken up not worried about something. I can't believe how good it feels.
I dropped the girls at school this morning, then came back to this apartment and celebrated my worry free, stress free, don't have to do anything that i don't want to do day...by going back to bed.
Tomorrow i start packing up this place and getting it all clean for the landlord. I want to be able to leave here on Saturday and never return. I don't have a ton of stuff to pack up...since Danny stole just about everything i owned and everything i had collected my whole life...all my personal things, he took to the tip...i just have all my new furniture and the personal belongings that i have collected in the last 18 months since i left Waiuku.
It won't take me long at all to pack this place up and get it clean. It would be REALLY REALLY good if Danny would return my Fridge and Washing Machine that Nick and I purchased together on his own accord...so that i have them in time for my move and don't have to go without a FRIDGE and a WASHING MACHINE until that matter gets sorted ....but i won't hold my breath and I'm so happy that i am not going to waste my time worrying about it.
Fridge and washing machine will sort themselves out. I have a new and proper home to move to. No more apartment living for me and no more of that life. In 3 days it is all over rover.
Finally...i have something to look forward to. It's been 3 years since i had something to look forward to! I'm dying of happiness and it's amazed me how such little things, that are just part of normality to most people make me so happy now.
If you are in the Mt Eden area...take a detour down Esplanade Road and look at all the bright pink trees. Spring is here early and the blossoms are BEAUTIFUL!
HANG IN THERE....
You may not be able
to see this right now,
but often our biggest hurts
are our greatest learnings...
What may now seem like
the end of the road, is just the
end of a chapter...
The Lessons you have learnt
will make the rest of the
story so much better than
you could possibly imagine...
That is the greeting card that i bought myself over 2 months ago when things were so bad. I didn't really believe it, but reading it helped. I bought it and stuck it on my fridge with fridge magnets. I read it every day.
That is the only promise that has been made to me in the last 5 years, that i believe in, and was kept. The unknown person that made this promise kept it. Danny didn't.
And right now I'm so glad that is how things worked out!